I was only 7
When it first happened
I thought you just want to talk
But then one night I realized
You weren't doing that at all
You told me to take a shower
Then put on a dress and come down stairs
I didn't know what you wanted
But I did as you said
And when I came down stairs
You were laying on the floor with your blanket
You told me to lay beside you so, I did
Then you started touching me
In places that mommy said were only met for me
I told you then to stop
So you did for a while then again you started
I was really scared
I didn't know what to do
I didn't want to say anything
I was afraid of what you were going to do
Something horrible and scary happened that night
I really wish it hadn't
I was afraid to tell mommy
Because I didn't know what she was going to say
Now that I'm twelve I still think about what you have been doing to me for the past couple years
Now you have sexually abused me one to many times
I have lost my virginity at the age of 7
I really want you to stop now because I could get pregnant
Sometimes I wish I was dead
I still didn't tell anyone except for a couple of my friends
You told me not to tell
I wish you would have just left me alone
Is this because I wouldn't live with you
Or is it because I'm really pretty or so I'm told
You don't do this to my little sister
All these thoughts won't leave my mind
I wish I was in heaven
But now I don't know if god will accept me
Why did you have to put me through this
Is this all a joke to you
Because in my mind and heart I'm really hurt
I really need to know :(
