Dean opens the door for me, a stern yet sad look plastered on his face. My face mirrored his as we walked down the hallway.
You get Cas I'll get Sam alright.
I gave Dean a look and nodded. He continued on when I stopped at Cas's door. I take a deep breath and lightly knocked on the door. A mumbled comes from the other side of the door before it opens.
" Prudar," Cas says rather happily
" Uh hi Castiel," I start
He gives me a rather concerned look and cocks his head to the side slightly.
" Is something wrong?"
I sigh and give him a soft smile," Dean wants you to meet us in the library. " We need to make an announcement." I say.
Jesus I'm gonna cry I hear Dean's thoughts
I choke back tears of my own and take deep breaths to stay calm. Grabbing Castiel's hand I lead him to the library where Dean and Sam stood talking quietly.
Sam please don't make it harder than it already is Dean's inner voice nearly breaks and cracks as he sighs and rubs his eyes tiredly.
I feel a harsh push of my tears and quickly wipe away the fallen tear. Cas frowns and stops me, " Prudar what's wrong?"
I look towards the ceiling and take a deep breath, leaving him to jog up next to Dean before I lost it. Cas took a seat at the large table next to Sam.
" Uh, how do I start this..." I sighed, shifting my weight uncomfortably
" Cas, we uh, we need to let you go." Dean says
He frowns, cocking his head to the side, " I don't understand..."
" You can't stay here Castiel. Not anymore anyway." I finish quietly
He gave Sam a confused and sad look before locking eyes with me
Why? He thinks
Before I broke out in tears before him I sucked in a harsh breath and made my way down the hall way to Dean's room, locking the door behind me. With a shaky sigh I lean against the cold oak door and slowly slide to the floor. I burry my head between my knees and let the water works go. The salty tears stain my face and knees as I cry. I never wanted him to leave nor did I want him to be in this position with the angels. It wasn't his fault. He shouldn't be homeless and out on the streets. He should be able to eat for Christ sakes without scrounging through the garbage. A harsh sob escapes my lips as I flung my head back in anger and slammed my hand against the floor. This wasn't fair at all.
Cas no don't give me that look it's not my fault
Dean's thoughts plead
Another wave of tears hits me as the thoughts continue
Oh Jesus I feel so fricken bad... I hope he'll be okay... stay strong Dean
I burry my head once more and hug my legs tight to my body, this was going to be hard for sure.
A soft knock on the door nearly made me scream as I jumped.
" Prudar?" I hear Sam's soft voice call from the other side of the door.
" I'll be okay Sammy trust me." I say as convincing as I could
He didn't buy it.
" Rue open the door for me please."
I took a deep shaky breath and stood on wobbling legs, unlocking the door. When Sam opened the door his eyes looked just as sad and confused as Castiel's had. He saw that I was still crying and pulled me into a hug. I tried to hold back but couldn't as I began to cry my heart out into his flannel. My arms wrapped around his waist as he rested his chin on my head, " Shh it's alright Rue I promise it'll be alright deep breaths." Sam spoke softly.
I took deep gulps of air for breath and tried to control myself.
" He doesn't deserve this Sam." I sobbed
" I know honey I know but-"
Suddenly Sam wasn't Sam anymore and the hug wasn't so soothing. I broke the hug and took a step back, seeing Ezekiel's lifeless stare. My sadness turned to rage in a matter of seconds.
" How could you do this to him you heartless freak." I whispered harshly
" It's for the best Prudar." Was all he said before turning to leave, shutting the door behind him.
My face got red hot as I screamed and ran at the door, punching and kicking it.
This is so unfair
" I know Dean." I whispered as I sunk to the floor once more.
He doesn't deserve this in any way
" True," I say weakly, before slipping into a heavy darkness
When I wake I'm laying in Dean's bed curled into a ball. There was meds and water on the night stand and I heard Dean quietly paced outside the door. All I could hear was mumbles of what he was saying but it still didn't sound too happy. Suddenly the pacing and mumbling stopped and the door clicked open. I lie my head down on the pillow and close my eyes, acting like I never woke up. I hear Dean sigh as he walks over to the bedside and kneels before my face. With another quiet heavy sigh I hear him sniffle quietly.
" Seeing you hurt kills me inside you know that? Even if it's over the smallest of things it's still heart retching to see you so heart broken and helpless," his voice wavers and cracks slightly at the end. I feel his hand rest upon my shoulder and give a very gentle squeeze as to not wake me. " I know you didn't want to do this but I seriously was for the best and I know that you know that so do I, it's just hard to let go. Especially considering it's much worse out there for him." He says brokenly. Another sniffle comes from Dean and the sound of his hand scratching against his face. I can feel tears prick at my eyes and hold back the lump in my throat.
Dean takes a deep shaky breath and sighs, leaning in to kiss my forehead before standing again and walking to the chair in the corner of the room.
" Dean...?" I say quietly
Dean looks over from the chair and clears his throat, " Yeah?"
" You think he'll be okay?"
" He's Cas. He'll be alright he always is."
I give a small nod and stare into the empty space in front of me.
I hope he'll be alright
