Dysphoria

03

Modern heartbreak is "read at 9:13 pm" when it's 9:40. It's unliked photos, it's blocking and unblocking and blocking and unblocking. Modern heartbreak is sick with being watched. It's breakups playing out on twitter feeds. It's unfollowed unfollowed unfollowed. It's a broken jaw, it's screenshotted photos that shouldn't have been saved, it's screenshotted texts meant for one person only. It's seeing your ex lover with their new one, watching their lives playing out like yours didn't. It's phones thrown into bedroom walls when their profile changes from single to in a relationship. It's Snapchat stories to make that one person jealous because without them you feel like nothing. It's that one story expiring before they see it because they don't give a fuck about you now and you know it. It's deleting their number, but wanting it tattooed on the back of your hand in case you ever want to call. It's messy it's messy it's messy. It's so fucking messy because everybody fucking sees it and it never fucking goes away.