"I am the human contradiction
I have no self confidence
Yet i have a massive ego.
I want to turn my life around,
Yet i want to die.
I want people to think i have no weakness,
Yet all i want to do is cry.
I want to be the best everything,
But i hate trying.
I want to stop hurting myself,
But thats all i seem to do.
I dont want people seeing my scars,
Yet i just keep adding more.
When i wake up i want to be happy,
But i dont want to wake up anymore.."
To me all those words are so relatible.. it all resemles me. Theres one more thing i want to add to that quote, but i made it up in my head:
"I dont want to be lied to anymore,
But some of the people just wont change."
In my life at this point i feel like so much people are lying to me, or even just replacing me.. pretty much all my friends have someone more important than me, they tell me im more important but i know thats a complete lie.. literally everyone. I have 4 main friends and they all have someone better then me. And they always will. Im just a piece of shit that is always replacable..
