"I was shook. I dropped my phone and sat there in shock. I didnt know what to do." -Ryan
Ryan POV.
So there is a problem. But ill get to that later. " lets go" said dewayne. Issac was watching me do my makeup. Today was friday. A good day. I felt pretty happy so i wore a crop top and ripped jeans with a bandana headband. Outfit was black with some "heels" i put that there because it wasent really high heels. But high tops. Converse. Anywho, we head out the door. Today i wore a black ( my teeth are white) lipstick and did a smokey eye. "My baby lookin cute" issac said. I laughed and said thank you. We got to the school. "Bye dewayne, be safe" i said. "Hasta luego" he said. We get to the school and i was feeling myself. "Whats up fag" i hear in the back of my head. I gave issac my backpack. It was jordan and guess who was there with him. My ex dillon. " sup u fairy" dillon said. I turned around and took off my jacket and all you could see was my v-line and half of my 4-pack. I was lookin cute. "Look, im in a good ass mood and i dont need you too to ruin it. Go about yo business" i said. They just left. It was hot. Good thing my hair was in a bun. I got so many compliments from students and teachers about my outfit. So we get to lunch and when it comes to lunch, im a loner. Even my own boyfriend ditches me. " fucking asshole" i said to myself but its koo. At least i got my phone. So blah blah blah school ends. De is outside waiting on us. We get into the car. "Hey y'all" he said. "Hey de" we said. "Ryan, imma take Issac to go to the gym with me. Tierra takin u shopping" he said. "Ok" i get home and issac and de left. Its been one hour. Tierra hasn't gotten off work yet. And issac and de was suppose to be here. So i wait. I get a call from some random number. " hello, is this ryan... (last name not needed)?" The voice said. "Yes.. this is he!" I said. " this is the first response team" he said. "Ok?" I said. " are you related to dewayne and issac?" He said "yes, issac is my boyfriend and dewayne is my brother" i said. "Well, at approximately 4:31 there was a drive by.. dewayne and issac got caught in the crossfire. Im sorry but..dewayne and issac were hit and crashed trying to drive off. Both were killed in the accident. I am so sorry." He said I was shook. I dropped my phone and sat there in shock. I didnt know what to do. A river came down my face. I called issac's parents. " hi ryan sweetie, how are you?" His mom said. "ISSAC IS DEAD. AND SO IS DEWAYNE" i yelled. "OH MY GOD , WHA-WHAT HAPPENED?" She said crying. "They got caught in a crossfire of a drive bye on the way back from the gym and dewayne tried to drive off but crashed." I said crying and in pain. "IM ON MY WAY!" She said. She hung up. I hear a knock. Its tierra. I open the door. "HEY BI- OMG WHAT HAPPENED?" She said " ISSAC AND DEWAYNE ARE DEAD!!" I said screaming. She had no words then cried. She came in and sat down. I pinched myself to make sure this was a dream. It wasent. So i go to school on monday looking ok. Mu hair in a messy bun and wearing sweats and no makeup besides highlight. As soon i go into the gates, i see this big ass poster. It said" every little thing, is gonna be alright ryan" i cried. This was the nicest thing anyone has ever done. Then they all hugged me. I guess the school heard. But I did post a memorial in instagram. So theres that. I walk to class amd the teachers had flowers for me and candy. "Sorry for your loss" my spanish teacher said. I enter the class and i see a shrine built just for issac. I go over, bend down, and cry my eyes out. Then i drop a flower. And add his favorite fruits. Apples, mango and mangosteen. I cried the whole day. So now i go to lunch. The principal goes up. " students, if i can have it quiet in3...2...1. Thank you. Students, we have suffered a loss. If you do not know, our beloved student Issac Rodriguez navesto tragically was killed on friday." All you hear is gasps and awws. "His boyfriend" then all you hear is "BOYFRIEND?" From hella students. "His boyfriend ryan would like to come up and say a few words" he said. I went up there with tissues and such. " hey everyone, usually im in a good mood but i lost 3 people that day." I havent told you what happened but ur about to find out. "Issac and my brother dewayne were caught in a crossfire the crashed trying to drive away. Then around 7, i got a call from tierra's roomate, tierra was my brothers ex and my bsf, saying she hung herself. My world just went down" i said. Tears came down my face hard. "I just want you all to know, issac and Dewayne had nothing to do with the drive bye and they were good people. They did nothing to hurt anyone." I said bawling my eyes out. "And i- i...i... i will need some time to heal" i said crying. "Thank you all" i said leaving. I cried and half of the cafeteria came and hugged me. I was sooo sad. Once i got home, i found something on my bed. It said "to ryan from tierra." It was her suicide letter and money to help me pay the bills. I read it. And i started crying. Then i found something under dewaynes bed. A shoe box. Then it was a will and letter. It said the following: "dear ryan, if you are reading this, i have died. I am leaving you all the money i had. 300,000 dollars. This is for you to keep and live off of. Also i want you to be successful in life. Me being about that life i wont live long. So here is something to remember me by" in the box there was a will, a wallet he made, and a gun for protection. I put the gun in my drawer. I kept all of issac's clothes. I only wore his ripped jeans and his nice shirts.
4 weeks later
Today is the day of their funeral. I get ready. I grab my flowers and my phone. So i call a uber to drive me to this grave yard. It was the funeral place for issac, dewayne and tierra. I payed for Dewayne funeral cost. Issac's parents payed for his. And tierra friends payed for her. The funeral started at 11 on wednesday. Half of the school was at the funeral to see issac one last time. I spoke. " thank you all for coming. I would like to introduce you all to issac's parents." I said. They spoke. They couldn't deal with the pain so they cut it short. " thank you so much. I wanna thank Jefferson and john funeral home. Now we will have a viewing and i dint want any pictures taken. So go ahead and open up the caskets." I said. I want first for all three. It had the kissing guard thingy on them so it wouldn't be some weird stuff going on. I had on black lipstick. I kissed tierra's , issac, and Dewayne's guard. I also wrote my initials on them next to the kiss. I cried so hard. Then while everyone left, i stayed to watch them lower the caskets. Everyone went to the repast. I thought. They actually stood behind me on the crosswalk watching me watching them lower the caskets. I threw roses on each casket as it was being lowered. Then i cried. Then the added a cement block then the dirt. I was just sitting there. An hour went by. Someone came up and hugged me. It was asia. She told me everything is gonna be ok. Then i got up and and went with them to the repast. I didnt eat. I couldnt eat. I was just sitting there with tears coming down my face. The next day i got dresses to school. But before i got there, i passed by the cemetery and added a flower on each gravestone. Then went to school. I was lonely all over again. Asia moved schools and i had no friends. I kinda wanted to die but i had to move in. Today i looked like it was lazy saturday. But i didnt care. RIP DEWAYNE 1992-2017
RIP ISSAC 2000-2017
RIP TIERRA 1993-2017
I will truly miss all three of you
