--Ross
I don't really know what and how would I feel after hearing from her that she hates me this much-- well, she didn't say that directly but, I heard her tone and she called me Ross and not Louise.
"I don't want to talk to Ross. Tell him to leave NOW."
Her tone was like a raging fire which burn me down. It rings in my ears as I stepped away from their house which made me hate myself even more.
I need her to know and understand what I went through and how did I get myself in this situation. I swear, since I realized that I love her more than I used to, I never loved anyone else beside her.
She means so much to me.
--Belle
I can't still cope with his come back. I hate him so much yet I still love him and I'm scared to death that if I don' build walls between us, my heart would betray me.
I want to know everything and the reasons behind all that happened to him three years ago but, I just can't. I'm so afraid to hear the truth-- just in case he just decided to forget me. But, what if there's good reason behind it? My heart says "Go talk to him. Ask him. FORGIVE him." But my mind keeps on telling me, "No use to do so, he's married to someone else. FORGET him.
I was in a mall near my workplace when I happened to see Andrei, my ex boyfriend who supposedly my husband now but, just 3 months before our wedding, a pregnant girl came to me begging not to marry him because he's the father. Andrei admitted to me that he really might be so, I gave him up.
"Belle , how are you? It's been 1 year,right?"
"Yeah. Oh, I'm doing fine. 'bout you?"
"We've been together for a year and I know you're not fine."
"So, you're a mind reader eversince?" I tried to joke.
"You can tell me. I'm still your friend."
He really was a good a friend to me aside from a boyfriend.
I somehow felt a relief upon hearing that.
"Mind having some yoghurt with me?"
He really knows me. Yoghurt makes me feel better when I'm stressed or in a bad situation.
"So? Now tell me."
"Ross is back. I have a lot of questions in my mind."
I told him everything.
"Talk to him. Ask him. I guess you don't want them to be questions forever, do you?"
"Of course, not . Btw, how about you? I mean how do you do?"
"Nothing much changed. I just had a child but we're not married. "But why?"
"We just don't love each other and her parents doesn't want their daughter to be wed without love. Our child is on her custody but every once in a while I get Louise from her."
I feel his sincerity but I also feel he's not that happy.
We exchange numbers before we parted.
When I got home, Dad asked me to go to the hospital because of Ross.
The DMMH is just 20 minutes from our home so I rushed there.
"Tita, what happened? Is he all right? "
"So, you're the bitch who caused him to suicide?!
I was startled at first but Ross' Mom defended me.
"Will you shut your filthy mouth?! She's my son's best friend.
"Don't worry, dear. She's now out of danger and don't dare blaming your self."
"I'm so sorry, Tita. I don't know he would do that. I'll talk to him as soon as he recover."
"What did I tell you? Don't blame yourself, please. It's nobody's fault."
The Doctor who checked on him came out from his room. He confirmed that' Louise's already out of danger and he permitted us to see him.
I hurried in although his wife tried to prevent me.
"Go away, he doesn't need you! Bitch!"
"Please, don't make a scene here. Let go of my arm!"
When I got close to him again, my tears automatically flown down my face as if they have their own mind which insteucted them to do so.
"Shh... don't cry, Honey. I'm not yet dead."
"I-I don't know what to say and how to start."
"Shhh... If there's someone who has something to say and explain here, it's me."
"I'm really sorry, Honeybelle. I caused you pain. I never dared to explain to you why all of a sudden, I cutt off our communication."
"Just get well for now and we'll talk about everything."
I stayed 'til morning despite her wife's protest. One thing I noticed, he was keeping his wife away from him but, I didn' dare to ask why. Maybe, they have some sort of misunderstandings.
Note: Hi. Medyo natagalan ang update ko. So, medyo mahaba ang isang 'to.
BTW, Pardon me. May mga typo errors po ito. I guess, marami. Sorry, cp po kasi ang gamit ko sa pag'update eh.
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