Life after nikkah

chapter six - just us

I waited for Isha bfor returning to d house....as I stepped into d company fragrance of traditional perfumed sticks hit my nostrils and even more wen I stepped into d house from my standing position I could sight d dinning table set "wat could b inside?" I thought to myself I looked around dere was nobody so I slowly walked to d table opened one lid of d closed 3set thermo warmer "wow!" I exclaimed my favorite, fried white carrot rice and baked beans d second warmer had chicken pepper soup which smelled heavenly just den I heard my stomach rumble believe m I hadn't realised how hungry I was until den so I decided to take a bath and wait for d ladies to step onto d table which was 40mins later d longest 40mins of my life.
Later dat nyt I was sleepless. I felt lyk going to her but I had no courage again I couldnt believe a man of war such as me felt panicked at d mere thought of rejection from a Lady slowly as d nyt grew old sleep a skillful thief stole m away
Nenne's POV
wlh by Allah dis lyf is so strange d lyf of sleeping and waking up in a house called mine but so unfamiliar living wit a man called my husband yet a total stranger to m hearing sm1 older dan m call m Aunty amarya but wait "I hope dey r not expecting m to giv birth soon" my subconscious starred at m from puff of my makeup mirror. Smthg dat still got m wanders of d moon was all wat I acquired just by simply bcmn his wife "u also r going to bare his kids" she my subconscious nagged again "shut up" I said to myself in pink silk nytty as all sorts of scary thgs ran marathon in my mind "must I?" .. "Do I have to??"....."wat next?" . .."forever is a long long tym u kno¿maybe enuf tym to answer all ur questions and Neva enuf to discover d real question you really want to ask whc is can I love him??"
I raised my hands up towards d ceiling and said "Hmmm. ...ya Allah,u see m now and u kno dat I obeyed my parents as u asked we do pls giv m d patience and strength to dis life you have choice for me. ..ameen" as it was d only thg I cud possibly do at d moment

D next day and all other days were always mysterious I didn't know how to act around him and him m...we visited my parents house Abba and Ummi were healthy I missed them a lot so when it was time to leave I almost broke into tears cause when I remember that I would be leaving for Egypt in two days it felt like I would never see them again....the visit ended we left wit my lovely parents giving us marital advice by Allah all what they said were only alien words to my ears my inside was screaming "Ummi please don't let him take me I want to come back to my old room my old life" but I guess it wasn't loud enough cause no one seemed to have heard m and we left for his parents house. On the way over there my mind drifted far away from my body titu said a lot of things but all I could do was smile and nod and pray she not ask me to respond cause I had absolutely no idea what she was all about. I had sat in front,titu and hauweey at d backseat while on the to our house but right now I sat next to titu and hauweey at front because my insides were whaling I just wanted to run away...but on d way to our house I so eager to see Ummi and Abba that I felt if I sat at front it would make us arrive earlier than the usual 45mins drive there
I noticed he spied at me through the rear mirror I caught him several times in one of those times our eyes met made me want to shout and just cry myself to death I felt like he took away my happiness "why did he not refuse it when his parents told him about me??" I kept asking myself wishing I had d answers
Eventually we arrived at the house his mom was a nice beautiful woman as always she gave me a warm tight big motherly hug it made me relax at a point it felt like it was Ummi who held me in her arms when she let go I was feeling better she ushered me to come sit next to her on her very white royal two seater couch while the maid strolled in with lots of dished out food and drinks which were the least of my problems I just wanted to leave as soon as possible they joked and laughed I just smiled his dad wasn't around he was out of the country apparently he left 5days ago after they had met with him at my parents house Abba had called him and they had shared their old men jokes and we were asked to say hello to him over the loud speaker...the day just seemed to go slowly too slowly for me as I was eager to leave but after magrib prayers which I performed in his mom's well scented and overly beautiful room,after I had prayed she said to me "Nenne....come let's have a mother daughter talk" as she smoothed the of her bed next to her for me...when I came to sit she held my hands in her and gave me that brilliant smile of hers and said "I know you feel sad and lonely but you're not my dear..just like Amira is my daughter so also you so I want you to feel free to tell me whatever worries you take me as you take your mother ..."she took a long pause then when on to say "your husband is very good man am not saying this because he is my son but because its the truth..give him the chance to take care of you and I promise you won't regret it...I know its hard the two of you are only but strangers to each other but look at it this way the both of you have your whole lives to learn about each other and trust me its fun learning new things about each other everyday for eternity...has he come to you?" She asked a question that puzzled me cause I had no idea what it meant noticing this she smiled and said "don't worry nasan baki gane ba but time you will" and that was the end of the talk after isha we left for our own house arriving past 10pm everyone just dragged their tired body to their rooms.
No one noticed how the time flew us by. On a Thursday precisely 12midnight our plane took of and we were in d air destination Cairo Egypt I cant really say wat went on in d plane apart from us being in business seats and him knowing d pilot cux I slept through d flight only to b woken up to a bright sky of Cairo sky on d landing space of Cairo international airport Egypt ..he led d way I was a follower.when we got to d exit of d airport there was a white venza 316 waiting for us as if tipped a white man in naval uniform cane out saluted and spoke Arabic to him he most b his ordeal I said to myself and off we drove to d naval quarters at abdoul jazda unit I was starring at d beautiful streets and houses all around every thg so perfect on d streets u see couples walking hand in hand sm wit kids so wit a predated tummy on and on which I envied "welcom to ur new home" I heard him say wen I turned his eyes were on m "thanks" I replied and returned my sight to d window it was a 3hrs drive from d airport to d house it felt like travelling again after d first one but I wasn't one to complain I was enjoying d view rather "d university u will b attending is behind dis structure" he said pointing to what I like to call a glass house but it was a national intelligence agency at least dat is wat I could make of d little Arabic I know from wat was written at d sign post.