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Shoey - Gone -

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May be a tear jerker, i don't wanna give too much away, but, you're warned, don't say I didn't

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Shane stared into Joeys deep, emerald green eyes, the eyes he had come to love.

Unfortunately for him, he couldnt see the pain behind them.

Shane and Joey had been dating for over a year now, and Joey had planned amazing things for him to do with Shane. Each one exciting and new. But, that picnic was the last thing on his list. And Shane was starting to get suspicious..

"Joey..." Shane asks, laying on Joeys chest as Joey ran his hand through his hair repeatedly, "Hmm?" he hums softly.

"How comes you're always wearing long sleeves and jumpers?" he asks gently, leaning into Joey's relaxing touch, "I like them,"  Joey replies softly, as Shane shuts his eyes. "Will... will you wear a short sleeve shirt tomorrow.. For me." He whispers quietly.

Joey felt a lump in his throat, as he swallows, "yes." he says softly as Shane smiled, leaning into Joey and moving up, wrapping his arms tightly around Joeys chest as he hugged him back. "I love you.." Shane whispers, as Joey tries hard not to cry, pulling his usual smile, which wasn't all true.. "I love you too baby.." he says softly as Shane starts to fall asleep...

11pm

12 am

1 am

The hours seemed to drag by, but he had to he certain Shane was asleep. He slipped out of Shane's arms, letting him hug a pillow, and this I when the tears started to fall for Joey. He knew this day was going to come, but he couldn't live a lie much longer. He kissed Shane's cheek, knowing he would be too weak to do so later, and whispered, "I love you baby, so so much. I'm so sorry.." he chokes, pulling out his note he had to leave for him, it would explain everything, and he put it on the side, kissing it, and left for the bathroom, locking the door as he reached for the small drawer, pulling out his blade, tears slipping from his eyes as he pressed it against his skin..

1 cut.

2 cuts

3 cuts

4!

More and more! He watched the blood trickle down his arms as it mixed with his tears. His head felt light with blood loss. He reached up into the cupboard, his hand shaking violently as he opens the pill bottle. He swallowed them down, trying so very hard not to choke. Think of all the bad thoughts that will go, he thinks to himself, think of all the people that will be happy with your death, he thinks, as he swallows the all down. With the little strength he had left, he bandaged up his bleeding arm, not bothering to pick up the blade, as he staggers back into bed with Shane. Falling asleep...

Forever..

Shane woke up, smiling at Joey.. "Morning sunshine!" he whispers, but Joey didn't move, Shane's smile lessened a little, "Joey.." he whispers. He shakes Joey, "Joey, baby, don't scare me.." he says, forcing himself to chuckle, "Don't scare me joey, wake up!" he says, his voice raising slightly. He put his hand on joey's chest, he wasn't breathing. Shane's eyes started welling up, "J-joey.. wake up." he croaks, tears slipping down his cheeks, "Joey.. please, I beg you." But Shane knew he was gone.. That was it for shane, he burst into tears, "Joey, no, why! why! why didn't you tell me!" he shouts, tears rushing down his cheeks. He sees the note, and picks it up. It looked blurry to his tear stained eyes, but he read it.

'To the love of my life, Shane Lee Yaw

I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry.. I love you, this isn't your fault. I made a bucket list, you see, and, it came to an end with that picnic..'

Shane could see the tear stains on the picture that was attached to it. It was them on the "Lovers Swing" where shane was kissing joeys cheek as he took the picture.

'I've loved, every second with you Shane. Its just the thoughts in my head have been getting worse. Im so sorry I couldn't stop them, I really am..'

The tears slid down Shane's face faster,

'I love you, so very much.. Now you go, grow old without me. Have kids, have a family, be loved by someone who isn't so broken..

I love you Shane..'

"I love you too Joey.." Shane croaks.

But he knew he wouldn't be able to make it through in life without Joey.. He ran Downstairs, downing a bottle of liquid paracetamol, tears sliding down his cheeks as he choked, grabbing another set of pills, and taking them, feeling woozy.. He managed to get himself up the stairs, staggering to Joey and laying beside him, kissing him softly as he chokes, "See you in heaven baby.." and falls asleep against his chest, letting out his last breath..