Not over you

Five

FREDDY POV

After summer ran out of the middle of dinner which is never like her i couldn't stop myself I mean I don't know what I was thinking but I lifted jada off of me and sat her down on the spare seat then ran out the kitchen , I saw summer walking up the stairs so I shout her name

"Summer"

Instead of stopping she just runs faster upstairs and to what I'm guessing is tomika room , I go up and I can hear crying from the other side of the door and that killed feel  because I know I'm the one who hurt her I'm the one who broke her heart and I'm the one who threw away the only good thing in his life , the thing that was worth everything for .....after a few seconds I finally open the door slowly and see summer crying ton tomika bed with her head buried in the pillow

"Summer"

She looks up at me looking so broken and depressed it took all of me just to not run over there and hug her and kiss her and tell her that I love her more than anything in the world but I can't so i pulled myself together and sat at the other side of the bed she was on

"What do you want Freddy , to come and gloat your happiness in front of me"

I hate how she speaks so low of me now , I used to be the one she went to for anything I held her at night when she was scared , I dried her tears when her dog passed away and she use to say I was her world but now I feel like I'm not even in it like i was sent to a different planet one that hasn't been discorvered yet and I'm there all alone with only jada to keep me company and I hate that because my favourite place to be is back in that world ,in summers world ,and yet again I'm by myself I mean although they don't say it I know my mum and tomika are disappointed in me I men's for fuck sake , I'm dissapointed In me

"No I just came to make sure you were okay" after i say that she scoffs

"Am I okay! You only came to see if I was okay , you made it perfectly clear you don't care about me so why , why do you keep torturing me?"

"I was just..."

"You know what Freddy just get out"

I look at her in confusion and slight sadness

" I said get out , GET THE HELL OUT OF THIS ROOM, GET THE HELL OUT OF MY HEART AND GET THE HELL OUT OF MY LIFE JUST STAY AWAY FROM ME!!😡

After she says that I can feel the tears pricking at my eyes because the last time I heard the sentence "stay away from me "was five months  ago when she said those three little words that cut the deepest hole in my heart ever not even my parents divorce hurt as much as that did and before she can say it again I decide I will leave because if  I stay we were both going to be in tears and I need to stay strong ,

as soon and I walk out of  Tomika room I see my stepmum standing there with her arms open I quickly ran and hug her because even though she was upset and dissapointed with me when she found out she helped me and sat with me all night

"She hates me ," I say this to her while crying
I
"Now honey she doesn't hate you •

"Why are you helping me with this shouldn't you be on jades side" she just shakes her head
And then says

"Freddy you have been my son since you were what like 3 years old and yes I may think what you did was disgusting and disappointing but I am not on jades side because I saw you that night you told her .. I had to come and pick you up because I phoned Zack and he said you went there to that spot hours ago but what I saw when I got there broke my heart , you weren't moving it was like you were traumatised you were just standing there crying out all over again sorry and even then when I took you home you didn't say a single word for 3 whole weeks and you hardly ate anything and while everyone else was doing there things I was watching my son tear himself apart , because you were broken and even now that has not healed I can tell your not happy anymore your always moody and cranky or just quiet and shy which isn't like you so yeah I'm going to help you no matter what Freddy because your stuck with me"

As soon as she said that I started to think about it she was right and even though she's not my real mother she has always been there for me , helped me and she always knew when I wasn't myself and when I stand there hugging one of the only other woman I love as much as summer , the other being tomika , I realise that I've taken her for granted so instead of saying this I just hug on to my mom tighter and whisper thank you

( okay so here is another chapter i though I would do a cute Freddy and tomika mom scene as well as a fremmer scene and I'm sorry if you didn't like it because there will be more scenes like that but best friends or brothers  and sisters )