My FtM story

Thoughts and a liytle more info

So this is what I looked like around the time I came out.I shaved my hand like five months ago maybe so I don't have much hair lol but it's growing back so I'm happy.
So I figured I should probably tell you a little about my situation I guess?
I live with my mom, dad, two brothers, and my aunt who has down syndrome or how ever you spell it. I'm the youngest of us kids both of my brother's are adults James being 18 and my half brother thirty something and I don't really like them (long story). My family is religious, well my dad is but he's more supportive luckily. I have one friend at the moment who is Autumn, she's cool but not really understanding and she won't look things up herself and I don't really want to talk about it a lot so she misses up a lot which sucks. My parents always wanted a daughter so I feel like shit cause I feel like I killed their "little girl". I didn't know I was trans until 8th grade and I knew something was off when I was in sixth grade cause of puberty and I truly knew what gender was then and I hated myself for my body cause of it. I like photography, music, and drawing mostly so thats what I do most of the time and of course walk around. I live in Kentucky which sucks because were I am there is nothing but woods and druggies oh and strict Christians. 😳
I feel so alone.
Also I'm in therapy so if I talk about dark shit don't worry I'm getting help er trying to, no one really understands transgender here.
Homeschooled cause my damn social anxiety. (That's for another chapter)
Along with other reasons.
So that's all I guess I'll update whenever I can.
Oh btw which sounds better?
Jonas Todd or Todd Jonas?

K...bye...peeps