Give me Love

Chapter 2

I reached into my backpack to get out one of my blades normally I wouldn't do this in the school bathroom but I do have to clean up afterwords and this is the most sanitary place I'll be all night.

I just really needed the release right now.

"Slice, Slice" "Slice, Slice, Slice" the razor slashing my skin over and over and over again.

The cutting always made it feel better for me; but with that came the memories over flowing my mind again. The memories of my parents beating me; the names they called me "worthless, fag, stupid cunt" what makes it worse is the memories of me thinking that everything was going to be ok.

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FLASHBACK

Alex was my ex he was probably the best thing I had going for me at the time. After I left my parents house I was just wandering the streets looking for a place to stay the first night of me being on my own. I had no money I only had a chance to grab a few things before I left my house not being able to bear being beaten by my "parents" one more time.

"Hey do u need a place to stay tonight"

" I don't wanna sound creepy but you look... Well you look like your homeless and I couldn't just pass you by without offering"

"Yea you know what that would be great".

Looks like your luck is looking up after all louis I said to myself.

The moment he brought me home he cared for me, every morning he made me breakfast and always took care of me; he even gave me a kiss in the cheek every morning before I went to school.

I had to stay late after school today to work on a project that the teacher assigned us, so I decided to send a text to Alex just to tell him that I would be home late; I know I didn't have to because I've been living with him for a whole week now but I just wanted to let him know I was ok.

"Hey Alex I'm gonna be a little late getting home , have to work on a school project. Xx -louis"

Failed to send message

Oh well I'll just tell him what happened when I get home.

The lad who I was assigned the project with was actually a really nice mate, his name was Liam Payne and his boyfriend Niall was there too. By the time we actually started the project it was 7:00 so we decided to just call it a night. I gave him my number and he sent me his in a text.

"My # 😜 we should meet for tea tomorrow morning and talk about the project. Xx -liam😛

" k cool liam I'll see u in the morning - Louis xx "

" Bzz Bzz Bzz Bzz"

I figured it was just another silly text from liam but it read

" Get your arse home right now or you'll regret it you twat"

It. Was. From. Alex.

I knew he was pissed at me the second I walked in the door because he grabbed my arm and brought me into the kitchen.

We both sat down on the kitchen stools and he was giving me a deadly stare with his icy cold brown eyes just staring at me.

He was sipping his hot tea just looking at me so I decided to break the silence.

" Alex...I'm sorr- " I was cut off by him throwing the tea onto my arm.

It. Burned. Like. Hell.

I immediately ran to the sink to get my arm under cold water so I don't get burn marks on my arm when Alex grabbed the arm he threw the tea on and he said " next time it goes on your face do you understand me?!"

Y, ye- yes I whimpered.

I left him alone for an hour or so and tried to go talk to him but he just screamed at me again. I don't have the slightest clue as to what triggered Alex but I knew I had to get out before it was too late. The only thing was that I was in love with him; but I knew I couldn't stay here or I would just get hurt again.

I ran upstairs and threw all my stuff into my backpack and left. And just like that I was homeless again.

I figured that Alex is probably gonna come looking for me one day or something cuz people like that usually just don't leave you alone but for now I'm fine. Except like I said I am homeless.