Saving Grace (707XReader)

Late Nights

-_____ entered the chat room-
Zen: _____!!!
Zen: ARE YOU OKAY?!
_____: Seven told you what happened?
Jaehee: He was worried about you, of course he told us.
Jaehee: I don't think I need to tell you this
Jaehee: but don't ever think about doing something like that again.
Zen: Yeah! You're part of our family
Zen: So we would be sad is something happened to you.
_____: I'm sorry guys.
_____: I won't scare you like that again.
-Yoosung ★ entered that chat-
Yoosung ★: _____!!!!!
Yoosung ★: >:(
Yoosung ★: What do you have to say for yourself?
_____: I'm sorry Yoosung...
Yoosung ★: I want more than an apology. We deserve an explanation.
Yoosung ★: Why didn't you tell us you were feeling like that?
Yoosung ★: Aren't we your friends?
Yoosung ★: Can't you tell us your feelings?
_____: ...
_____: I'm sorry. I just...
_____: I didn't want to burden you guys with my feelings.
_____: I didn't want to cause any trouble.
_____: and I didn't mean for it to go that far...
_____: I'm sorry.
_____: I should have told you guys sooner.
Yoosung ★: You're right. You should have
Yoosung ★: So next time, tell us, okay?
Yoosung ★: we're here for you.
Jaehee: Yes. We're your friends. So you can come to us.
Jaehee: It's a good thing though that Luciel was able to get to you first.
Zen: Speaking of Seven. I thought he would have been here by now to check on you again.
_____: There's no need.
-707 entered the chat room-
707: BECAUSE I'M RIGHT NEXT TO HER!
Zen: YOU'RE STILL AT HER APARTMENT!?
707: Yes
707: I
707: am~
707: I don't want to leave her alone.
707: just in case.
707: The Defender of Justice can't just leave a damsel in distress
_____: Don't worry Zen.
_____: He's sleeping on my couch.
_____: I'm actually glad he's here.
707: I'm
707: her
707: ANTIDEPRESSANT!
_____: I wouldn't put it like that.
Jaehee: All in one message please. It's giving me a headache when you talk like that.
Zen: ... ____
Zen: If he does anything
Zen: Call me
Zen: And I'll come right over.
_____: Nothing's going to happen. I trust Seven.
Zen: All men are wolves, _____!
Zen: Seven is a man!
Zen: Don't trust him!
_____: Don't you have to work out about now?
Zen: ... shit. I'll be back.
Zen: Don't forget to call if something happens!
Zen: or if you just need to talk!
Zen: Bye!
_____: Bye lovely Zen!
-Zen left the chat room-
Yoosung ★: Seriously, _____
Yoosung ★: If you need any of us. We're a phone call away.
Yoosung ★: So don't hesitate to call.
Yoosung ★: I don't know about Jumin, but Zen and I will always answer the phone.
Jaehee: I will as well if Mr. Han isn't piling on more work.
_____: Speaking of Jumin
_____: I thought I'd see him here as well.
Jaehee: He's at dinner with Mr. Chairman.
Jaehee: I will inform him when he gets back that you're okay and that Luciel is with you.
Jaehee: He will be rather disappointed, though.
Jaehee: I heard him mention that he was going to go over with Elizabeth the 3rd
Jaehee: but if Luciel is there, then he won't
707: Aw~ I want to see Elly!
_____: Haha. It's fine. I wouldn't mind some kitten therapy, but Jumin doesn't need to go to the trouble.
Yoosung ★: Oh! My guildmaster just called.
Yoosung ★: Rare monster! I gotta go!
Yoosung ★: Bye!
-Yoosung ★ left the chat room-
707: I'll head out too
707: Don't stay on too long, _____
707: You need sleep, too.
_____: all right.
-707 left the chat room-
Jaehee: Well...
Jaehee: back to what I was saying
Jaehee: Mr. Han knows that he doesn't need to go through the trouble.
Jaehee: he thinks of you as family, like we all do, so it was his way of trying to comfort you.
_____: Well, that's sweet of him.
_____: Tell him I said thank you for the thought when you see him
_____: I should go now, too.
_____: Seven is looking at me expectantly.
Jaehee: Are you just saying that to freak Zen out a bit?
_____: Maybe.
Jaehee: haha.
Jaehee: Well, have a good night.
_____: Good night, Jaehee
-_____ left the chat room-
    _____ sighed as she locked her phone and put it down. She was sitting on the pullout couch, cross legged while Seven was lying down with his hands behind his head. The TV was turned on. Seven turned his head to look at her.
    "You okay?"
    _____ shrugged. "I feel terrible."
    "Why?"
    "I scared them. Jumin was even going to being Elizabeth the 3rd over," she said.
    "Well, what did you expect to happen?" Seven asked and sat up. "The world to just move one when you died? I told you before that a lot of people would be hurt and sad if you disappeared. We all think of you as family, so of course everyone would be upset to hear about what happened."
    _____ sighed again and bowed her head. "Did you really have to tell them?"
    "It was before I came over. I went on to the chat room, hoping you were there so I could talk to you because you weren't answering my texts," Seven explained. "Zen and Yoosung were on and well, they could see how freaked I was. I had to go back on after I stopped you to let them know everything was okay."
    _____ didn't say anything and Seven put an arm around her shoulder and pulled her into him. She rested her head on his shoulder and sighed. They sat like that for a while before Seven spoke again.
    "You don't need to feel bad. Especially about how you feel. I'm sure Zen has some sort of idea how it feels to be on the receiving end of a breakup, especially if the relationship was seemingly perfect and the other party had no discernable reason," Seven explained and rested his chin on _____'s head. "Yoosung... well, he's been in a dark place since Rika. Jaehee has probably experienced something similar as well. I can't really speak for Jumin. So you don't need to apologize for how you feel. We all understand. Yes we were scared, but we're relieved that you're still here and with us and we want to help you however we can."
    _____ nodded. "I guess so. Still... I was only thinking of myself earlier."
    "In a time like this, thinking about yourself is exactly what you should be doing. Self-care after a breakup like this is the most important thing you could be doing," he said. "So worry about yourself, okay?"
    _____ snorted. "You know me. I worry about everyone before myself. I would drag my body and mind through shit if it meant I helped someone I care about. I can't worry about myself."
    "I know, but you need to learn that sometimes you can worry about yourself more than others," he said. "And until you learn that, I'll worry about you, okay?"
    "All right, thank you, Luciel."
    "You don't need to thank me," he said. "You should probably go to bed. It's late. I'll see you in the morning."
    _____ nodded and left Seven's arms and crawled off the bed. "See you in the morning," she said and walked into her room.
    Seven watched as she disappeared into her room and pulled off his shirt before pulling the covers over him. He decided that he should at least have a normal sleep schedule while he was staying here, especially if he was acting as her antidepressant.
* * *
    "Come on, let's go here?"
    "All right, wait up for me, babe!"
    _____ smiled back at her boyfriend, his hair falling over his face as he pushed up his sunglasses. "I love you."
    "I love you, too"
    "Always."
    "Forever."
* * *
    _____ bolted up out of bed and felt around next to her. It was empty. A stabbing pain settled in her chest next to her heart. She gasped and clutched at her heart, doubling over, trying to stop the tears from falling from her eyes. She bit her lip to stop herself from crying out. She didn't want to wake Seven, but she realized that she didn't think she would have a choice. She couldn't handle this alone and she didn't think she would be able to fall back to sleep. Not with the dreams she was having.
    She took in a shaky breath and got out of bed and walked into the living room. Seven was sound asleep on the bed and she stared at him, having a hard time bringing herself to wake him. He was sprawled out on the mattress. The blanket was tangled around his feet legs, leaving his chest completely exposed. For someone who sat around on the computer all day, he was pretty built. She guessed that his work with that intelligence agency required a certain amount of physical fitness. She swallowed and tried to gather the nerved to wake him.
    "Seven?" she whispered.
    He didn't stir.
    She gulped and reached out and shook his arm a bit. "Seven," she said a little bit more urgently.
    He still didn't move.
    She sighed and shook his shoulder this time. "Luciel," she said in a louder voice.
    He blinked blearily and yawned. He looked up and saw _____ standing on the side of the bed next to him. He sat up a bit and rubbed his eyes, reaching for his glasses so he could look at her properly.
    "What time is it?" he asked after a yawn.
    _____ looked at the cable box. "2:41," she answered.
    He only nodded and held out his arms for her. She wordlessly crawled onto the bed and leaned into him. He decided that he wasn't very comfortable, leaning over like that, so he just pulled her into his lap.
    "Nightmare?" he asked.
    She shook her head. "That's the thing. It was a really good dream the problem was..."
    "You woke up and it wasn't real."
    She nodded and buried her head in his chest. "It felt so real. Reality feels like a nightmare and my dreams feel reality. I feel like I'm losing my sanity."
    He smoothed out her hair and held her close to him. "It's not something abnormal," he said. "It's part of the healing process. Eventually everything will come into focus."
    "When will that be?" she asked. "I don't want to feel like this anymore. I don't want to feel like I'm slowly breaking apart at the seams or losing my grip on reality."
    "I know. I told you before that if I could take away your pain, I would," Seven said and started to rock her back and forth, talking in a more soothing voice. "But since I can't, the most I can do is help you through it, be here for you when it gets too much."
    "You don't know how much that means to me," _____ said, sleepily. "Um... would you mind if I slept out here with you for the night? In case I have another..." she yawned, "dream?"
    Seven blinked, suddenly wide awake now. He coughed. "Um. Yeah. Sure. Whatever helps," he said.
    "Thank you, Luciel," she said.
    He nodded and then laid her down on the bed, giving up one of his pillows. "Don't mention it," he said.
    He took off his glasses and laid down as well, on the other side of the bed. She looked at him, sleepily and smiled. He felt heat rush to his face but he managed a small smile back.
    "Night," she said.
    "Sleep tight," he replied.
    She closed her eyes and was out almost instantly. Seven, on the other hand, had a difficult time falling back to sleep. He chose to sleep on the couch because he didn't think something like this would happen. Not that he minded at all, it was just that... he felt hot. He'd need another cold shower. Damn it. Taking care of her while also keeping his distance was going to be harder then he thought.
    He stared at her face. She looked so peaceful in her sleep. He wondered if he could find a way to make her look that peaceful when she was awake. Maybe a time machine. Then he could stop some things from happening and she would be happy again. She always looked best when she was smiling. He reached up and brushed the backs of his fingers across her cheek softly. She smiled in her sleep and Seven immediately rolled over so his back was to her, his face completely red and his heart beating a mile a minute.
    Damn it.