Saving Grace (707XReader)

V

Once they walked back inside and the date supposedly officially over, _____ pulled out her phone and opened the RFA messenger to find that she had over 20 emails from potential guests for the party. She sighed and sat down on the couch bed and started reading through them, answering the best she could. Seven sat down next to her almost immediately and started reading over her shoulder.
"You know, I almost completely forgot about the party," Seven said and rested his chin on her shoulder as she answered emails.
"Yeah, me too. But I guess that's pretty understandable all things considered," she said and shrugged.
He chuckled. "By the way, the date isn't over yet," he said.
_____ raised an eyebrow at him. "What do you mean?"
Seven snickered. "I haven't given you a kiss goodnight," he teased. "Doesn't that always happen at the end of dates?"
_____ snorted. She couldn't help it. "You are such a dork," she said.
"Be that as it may," he smirked. "Though, if you really don't want a kiss from me, then I won't force you."
She smiled softly at him. "No, I think I could spare a little bit of affection to throw your way for such an enjoyable time," she said and locked her phone, placing it in her lap.
Seven lifted his head off of her shoulder and cupped her cheek with his hand and leaned in. "Maybe I should take you out more often, then," he said before he gently placed his lips against hers in a chaste kiss.
It wasn't as heated as the last one they shared. It was sweet and short and enjoyable. _____ returned the kiss but just before it could get much further then that, Seven pulled away. _____ noted the mournful look on his face, as if he didn't want it to end so soon, but she also understood why he did it. She reached up and brushed the back of her hand against his cheek lightly.
"Thank you," she said and smiled up at him.
He opened his mouth to say something, but instead, he opted to throw his arms around her and pull her into a tight hug. It surprised her, but she did tell him on the date that she wouldn't turn down hugs, especially random ones. She hugged him back, resting her head on his shoulder as he held her. She started to wonder why he seemed to need the hug so badly, but decided to wait until he was satisfied. Finally he pulled back and _____ looked at him.
"Date officially over," he said and smirked. "You can go back to checking the emails."
She didn't go back to her phone at first. "Is everything okay?" she asked.
He smiled sheepishly. "Yeah. Sorry about that I was just... afraid that you would just disappear on me."
"I have no intention of doing something like that to you," she said. "You don't need to worry."
"I know. I guess this is just something that comes along with the territory," he said.
"Territory of what?"
He shook his head and plucked her phone off of her lap. "Here. We both have some work we need to get done," he said and stood up off of the bed, walking to his set up on the dining room table.
_____ watched him go and sighed before she crawled up on the bed and leaned back on the pillows. "After we get some work done, do you want to watch a movie with me tonight?" she asked.
Seven turned and smiled at her. "I'd love to."
She smiled back and then turned her attention to her phone and started answering the emails again. She wasn't sure how much time had passed but by the time she finished she noticed that a chat room opened on the messenger. She shrugged and clicked on it, entering the room.
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-_____ entered the chat room-
_____: V!
_____: You're here!
V: Hello, _____.
V: how are you?
V: I heard about what happened.
V: are you okay?
_____: Okay is relative I guess
_____: But I'll survive.
_____: Seven has been helping me.
V: Good. I'm glad to hear that everything is okay.
V: Listen.
V: If you need more time to handle the emails or even some help, don't hesitate to ask me.
V: I understand that losing someone you love can be hard so if you need another friend to listen, you can come to me.
_____: I appreciate the offer, V
_____: But I've got the party emails under control. I just answered a whole bunch of them.
_____: Everything should be set for the party next Friday.
V: All right. If you're completely sure.
V: Just remember that we're all here for you if you need
-Jumin Han entered the chat room-
Jumin: Hello _____
Jumin: Hello V
Jumin: It's nice to see you.
V: Jumin
V: How are you?
Jumin: I'm doing well.
Jumin: I'm actually glad you're here.
Jumin: The six of us are planning to meet up tomorrow at noon.
Jumin: I'm sure everyone would be happy if you were to join us.
V: I'll see what I can do. I'm very busy, but I'll try to make it.
-707 entered the chat room-
707: THE PARTY HAS ARRIVED
V: Hello Luciel.
707: Oh, V. You're here.
707: Is everything okay?
V: yes. I just came to make sure that _____ was okay.
V: Offer some more time if she needed.
_____: I told him it was all good.
V: I also heard that you're staying with her for the time being
V: Do you think that's really the best idea?
707: oh no.
707: not you too.
V: it's not what you think.
V: listen.
V: I'm not going to be like Zen and tell you that it's a bad idea or that you shouldn't do this
V: Or be like Yoosung and give words of wisdom
____: wait, Yoosung said something about this too?
707: It's not important _____.
V: But I will say that I hope you know what you're doing, Luciel.
V: Anyway. I should probably get going.
V: I'll try to see all of you tomorrow.
-V left the chat room-
_____: ...
_____: Seven
_____: What was V talking about, what about Yoosung?
707: Look, it's not important.
707: Just drop it for now okay?
Jumin: Well, I see the two of you have things you need to sort out.
Jumin: I'll see you guys tomorrow.
-Jumin left the chat room-
_____: Seven.
_____: Couch.
_____: Now.
-_____ left the chat room-
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_____ locked her phone and put it in her pocket as she waited for Seven to gather up the courage and come talk to her. She watched as he took a deep breath and stood up from his set up and sit down next to her on the couch. _____ gave him an expectant look. He sighed.
"Look, what happened with Yoosung isn't really important," he said. "It doesn't matter."
"If it has to do with me, I think it does," she replied. "Just tell me. It's not like it'll change anything."
"You say that but..." he trailed off and unlocked his phone.
He scrolled through chat rooms until he came across the one that was him and Yoosung talking. He handed _____ the phone and signaled to her to just read what was said between him and Yoosung. He watched as her face went from blushing with embarrassment at that picture of her and Honey sleeping to confusion and hurt when she got further into the conversation. He couldn't really blame her though.
"What..." she couldn't form the question but Seven already knew what it was.
"I swear I didn't mean any of it," he said.
"I was just saying that to get Yoosung off my back. I didn't want to try to explain to him what was going on. I was afraid that would lead to more questions I didn't want to answer."
"But... what did you mean when you said that you weren't going to admit to things that would lead to anything anyway?" she asked and looked at Seven.
It broke his heart to see the pain on her face. Because of him. He mentally cursed at V for bringing it up and making her question it and him. Though some part of him deep down knew that it was entirely his fault. He sighed.
"Because of my job," he admitted, "I can't have a personal life. You're in danger just by being close to me." He sighed and reached out, brushing away the tear that fell from her eye with his thumb. "But I just... I can't... I kept you at arms length while you were dating Jeong because that's what was necessary. But when you almost killed yourself because of the breakup, I was so scared that I was going to lose you and the thought nearly drove me insane. I couldn't really deny that I felt something for you at that point, and even though everyone pretty much knew already, I had been denying and denying it over and over that it felt wrong to just suddenly admit it to them. I was just protecting myself. It's what I'm good at really." He rested his forehead against hers and closed his eyes. "I should have told you sooner, I know. I'm sorry I didn't."
He fell silent and _____ just stared at his face and didn't say anything. She couldn't find the words. She hurt. For some reason this pain felt worse then the breakup and she wasn't sure why. It felt like she was losing someone else close to her, or at least lost a part of him. She searched his face, trying to find any trace of uncertainty or deceit in his expression, but found nothing. Seven opened his eyes and looked at her, pleadingly.
"Say something," he said, "please."
"I don't know what to say," she replied and sighed, her voice thick. "I want to cry, I want to scream and yell. I want to break something. I feel a little betrayed right now and I don't know what to do with this feeling."
He sighed and dropped his gaze, straightening up. "I'm sorry. I never wanted this to happen."
"Then you shouldn't have let it," she said.
"If you care about me the way you won't admit to the others, then you shouldn't have let this happen. You should have told me. I care about you Seven. I don't exactly know in what way yet, but you're important to me and you are one of the people I trust the most in the RFA."
"But?" he asked.
"But if you want me to open up to you about my own feelings, I think it only fair if you do the same," she said. "I don't care if you're feeling sad or depressed or angry. Talk to me. If you want to talk about some painful memories, share that with me. It's a lot easier to carry things together then alone."
His looked up at her, his eyes widened with shock. "What you're saying is... you'll forgive me?"
"If you talk to me like you want me to talk to you," she said. "I'll forgive you."
He smiled and hugged her tightly. "I promise, I will," he said.
"But this doesn't mean that I'm your girlfriend," _____ said. "I'm still not ready to jump into another full blown relationship and I don't want to hurt you by giving you the wrong idea."
"I know," he said. "I'm content just being like this for now. What ever this is."
She smiled and hugged him back. "Thank you for understanding."
"Stop thanking me," he said and nuzzled her gently before letting her go. "So movie?"
She laughed a bit. "I'll make popcorn. You pick the movie," she said and got up off of the couch and sauntered into the kitchen.
Seven watched as she walked out of the living room and into the kitchen. "I'll wait for you," he said to himself, a silent promise.
With a sigh he got up off of the bed and went to _____'s DVD collection and picked out a comedy, figuring the both of them could use a laugh after the serious talk they just had. He popped the DVD into the player and made himself comfortable on the couch bed and waited until _____ returned with the buttery goodness.