It Was Only Ever You B.W.S

Chapter 1

I was on YouTube today and I seen a video of The Vamps, looking like they haven't aged at all in the past four years. My mind started to wander as to this place I had left behind some years ago.

"I just need to focus on my career right now Izzy." "So that's it then 3 years just down the drain?" I say as I stand there in front of him crying. "I don't know right now everything is just so confusing right now. The band is really starting to take off now and I really want to focus on that.

I stand there crying and he looks like he wants to comfort me but he doesn't, he holds back and all I wanted was for him to grab me and tell me that everything was going to be alright. He doesn't and the longer we both stand there the more I hurt "That's it then."

I say as I grab my bag and my coat from the couch and leave, that was the last time I saw him I didn't look back and he didn't come after me.

"Izzy?" Someone says as I come out of my thoughts I turn around and see Kenna staring at me "Hey." I say to her with a smile. "What you up to?" I cose out of the screen I was on and shut my laptop "Nothing I was doing some work but then I got bored and started watching some videos."

"What videos did you find?" "It's not what you think Kenna." "I wasn't thinking anything but since you brought it up why were you watching a video of the boys?" "You know I do support them and I do still keep in touch with Connor, James and Tristan."

"Okay if you say so." I shake my head at her "You hungry?" she asks me and I nod my head to her "Great because I ordered take out and it's movie night with the guys and they will be here soon." I nod to her I go put my things up in my room and then I join her on the couch.

The door bell rings and I go answer it "Hey babe how are you?" Alec my boyfriend says as he walks in and kisses me on the cheek "I am great now how are you both doing?" I say to him and Luke "Well we have had better days but it's okay."

Luke says as he goes over to Kenna and kisses her "So what's on the agenda tonight? Scary movie?" Alec says I groan "Why do we have to watch a scary one?" I make a pouty face as I say this and they all laugh. "It's scary movie night tonight." Kenna says to me.

I shake my head at her we wait for the food to come before we settle in the living room to watch the movie. They decided that we would watch the older version of the movie IT and I was not happy about this at all. "Who picked this movie?" I say to all of them as we grab our food and head to the living room.

"I did." Kenna says "You know I hate that movie." "Yes and that is exactly why I picked it." I roll my eyes at her as Alec and I take our seat on the floor by the coffee table. The movie starts and I immedeatly feel scared, I couldn't eat as the movie started going and I grabbed onto Alecs arm.

I just wanted it to be over already I had my eyes closed and when I opened them IT popped onto the screen and I scream. They all start laughing and Alec pulls me into his arms, "It's just a movie." He whispers into my ear "I don't like it." I whisper back to him and he hold me close to him.

After the movie we cleaned up "You are not leaving me tonight." I say to Alec he smiles at me "Fine." He says to me as we make our way to my room the hall was dark and I was scared. "Oh my gosh Izzy if you hold on to my arm any tighter it's going to fall off."

I laugh a little "I'm sorry I'm just really scared you all know I hate that movie and yet Kenna picked it anyways that bitch." "Hey I heard that." She says as I see her walking by my room going back to the living room. I stick my tounge out at her and she does the same to me.

"Yall are weirdos." Alec says "Come on guys we have one more movie to watch." Kenna yells from the living room. "Shut up." I yell back at her as Alec and I make our way back to the living room the next movie we watched was the shining but I didn't even get through half of the movie before I fell asleep.

"Izzy let's go lay down." Alec says in my hear as he touches my shoulder. I nod to him as we both get up and head to my room I lay down on the bed and he goes into the bathroom. After a little while he comes back out with nothing but his boxers on and I just stare at him with a smirk.

"You know if you took a picture it would last longer." he says to me as he smirks back at me. He comes to lay down with me as he kisses me hard as I run my hands on his back and his chest. He starts kissing my neck but then he says something to me "You're so beautiful, I can't get enough of you."

Those 9 words that brought back memories of him "What did you say?" Alec looks at me with a confused look "I said you're so beautiful, I can't get enough of you." "You have never said that to me before." He sits back "Did I say something wrong?"

I look at him and he looks back at me "Um no you didn't say anything wrong I think I'm just tired." He stares at me for a few seconds more "Okay goodnight I guess." "Goodnight."

"I love you Izzy." "You too." I say back to him we settled under the blankets, me telling him I loved him was something I had trouble saying to him and I don't know why I cared about him a lot and he is amazing but I couldn't tell him I loved him with the same meaning he would tell me.