Without Words

no words

“Oh yes, we understand each other just by looking.”, Byulyi proudly answered the host’s question.

“I think she meant she’s very close with Solar.”, the host clarified.

“Yes, we are.”, Byulyi had no choice but to agree even if it wasn't clearly what she meant. In a way, it was. But Byulyi meant something more than that.

Byulyi was called to guest for an episode at a variety show about Solar’s participation in We Got Married. She wasn't really feeling up to it. She had to force herself to avoid suspicions about her relationship with Yongsun. Only the members of Mamamoo knew of the two’s relationship.

She couldn't believe Yongsun would agree to participate in that virtual marriage reality show. Byulyi couldn't really do anything about it. It was Yongsun’s choice. Jealousy wouldn't get her anywhere so she trusted Yongsun and her decision. She hated the thought that the older girl will flirt with anyone other than her. She hated the thought that Eric Nam could possibly kiss her in the coming episodes. She hated how she could only fake her happiness for her friend. Friend? What exactly was her relationship with Yongsun anyway? She just realized they never really labeled their relationship. Their relationship was ambiguous and maybe she was the only one who thought their relationship was so much more.

She could never be so wrong. Few weeks passed and she noticed Yongsun barely spent time with her. She noticed the change in Yongsun’s behavior. The older girl seemed more excited when Eric was visiting her than when she was visiting Yongsun during the filming days of Yongsun's reality show. She would see Yongsun jump in joy when she heard Eric was there waiting for her.

Maybe just maybe, it was all an act. They were surrounded by cameras after all. Until one night when everyone was asleep in their dorm, Byulyi woke up from the sound coming from their living room. She got up to see what it was and before she even reached their living room she was stopped by Yongsun’s voice talking to someone on the phone. She sounded as if she was having fun. Byulyi wondered who was her unnie was talking to at this time of night. She had her suspicions. And, boy, was she right. It was Eric. As much as she wanted to deny it, it proved that Yongsun wasn’t just acting all sweet with Eric. It was all true. The hosts from the variety show she attended was right, she was just very close with Yongsun. They were just close friends. She gritted her teeth at her realization.

'I guess that's just how it is’, she said to herself as she went back to sleep. Barely.

Hope came back rushing to Byulyi when Yongsun acted the way she used to before all of this started. It was pathetic, she knew that. Yet she clung onto the hope that their relationship will be back to the way it used to be.

Yongsun hugged her really tight and they went on a date for the first time in a while. Friendly date? Maybe, but Byulyi didn’t mind. She just wanted to spend some time alone with the one she loved the most. They had fun. They were together the whole day. It was their precious day off and they spent it well with each other. It was as if the past few weeks didn't happen.

The skies grew dark so they decided to stop by a nearby park before they went home. Yongsun admired the stars but Byulyi thought she was more beautiful. She only had her eyes for Yongsun. Yongsun was beautiful no matter what she wore, with or without make up. Her gaze was fixated on Yongsun's eyes. She realized she was spacing out when the raven-haired snapped her out of her trance.

“Unnie, you’re so beautiful.”, Byulyi admired Yongsun way too much and she wasn't shy to express it.

“Geez, Byulyi, stop it.”, the older girl was flustered. Byulyi laughed at the sight.

They were back at again with their usual flirting until tears started rolling from Yongsun’s eyes out of nowhere.

“Unnie, are you that flattered?”, Byulyi faked her laugh. She knew what the tears meant but she didn’t want to believe it.