I Dont Know If I Like You Or Not..

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So when i got there i seen zavi waiting outside. He must be waiting for me. I said to myself. I walked up on the porch and his mouth dropped. I walked in smiling and i bumped into leloo.

Leloo:so u came. I dint think u would show up. But u look nice.

Me:thanks u too.
Leloo:here u can sit next to teo. They went to the bathroom.

Me:ok. I waited well WE waited for 5 mins. and they came out i looked the other way soon as teo pulled up to the table. Key called my name💀.

Me:what?
Key:u look stunning.
Me:mmmhhhh
Teo:u tryin steal my girl.
When he said that i covered my laugh cause that was hella funny.
Teo: You look good girl *smiling under his mask*
Me:thanks...you look just like you did all those other times... Ready to dance😂😂💯.
Teo-wow thanks for the same complement on my clothes💀.
Me-no prob.

With that being said We had fun and me and teo talked things out but I still dont trust him. I like him so much but he do mean things like im not even there sometimes. I dont know how to feel right now. I have so many crazy feelings I cant even explain. I wanna kiss him hit him punch him hug him all at once but I cant find myself to even start the conversation off. I didnt even go home I jus drove to the nearest park and sat and thought. Maybe I should just leave I thought to myself.  I wouldn't be in this mess fr fr if I wasnt here. I should leave and find a place out in the woods where I can be left alone since everybody wanna mess with my feelings. I cant believe I dont know how I feel. Thats one of the reasons I wanna leave soo bad. I can think to myself and Have space to breath. I just sat quietly letting the tears flow for no reason. Maybe I was crying cause I had mixed emotions and I didnt know which one to choose or maybe I was crying Cause I need to end this all and just leave and never come back. I never thought it would come to this but it has and now I have to find away to be alone without really being alone if that makes sense. I dont really really wanna leave but I gotta get myself straight cause theres no way to be right now but the way Im thinking. I should jump off a cliff sense its how my little brother died. I never told yall that cause I didnt wanna bring it up but Ill talk about it in the next chapter.

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