My Shoe Holds A Secret

Chapter 10

Felicity's P.O.V

I groaned as I twisted my hair, water rolling down my already soaking wet clothes. I coughed as the coldness hit me. Where was I? Wait, I remember this place! Weymouth! I was back home... Well, close enough. I felt a snow petal on my cheek as I frowned. It's winter? Wow, and it's snowing! I giggled before patting my sides. Where was my coat? Shit. I looked towards the sea to see a familiar person crying, hugging my wet coat.

I walked closer, hugging my body as it got colder. I finally recognized the girl, it was Rosa. I smirked, walking next to her. "Do you mind giving me my coat back?" I asked, still smirking. She slowly looked up and sniffed. "Felicity? I thought you were dead!" she said, standing up and hugging me. She pulled back and pulled a face. "Oh god, you're soaking. I'm not hugging you again!" she chuckled as I smirked.

"Well I did technically just drown. Can we go inside? I'm freezing." I shivered and she nodded, handing me a small bag. "Felix gave me this. Said it was enough money for us to get a place to stay." she explained and I nodded.

We decided to stay in a nearby hotel over looking the sea. I changed into some dry clothes and we started talking about what we should do whilst eating in a restaurant. I looked out of the window. "Look, its like a blizzard out there." I chuckled, pointing outside. Rosa smiled and chuckled. "Seems Jack Frost is busy." she smirked. I smirked back as I sighed. "So, what do we do now?" I asked and she shrugged.

"I don't want to think, I'm way too tired." she said, finishing off her lasagna. She stood up and walked towards the stairs. "Good night Felicity." she said, smiling before walking upstairs to go to sleep. I finished my cottage pie and payed the bill before stepping outside. I looked up at the sky as the snow drifted down. I smiled and chuckled. "Nice work, Jack Frost." I chuckled before calling it a night.

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Rosa P.O.V

I was so glad Felicity was back. I had spent almost a week here alone, this had caused the voice in my head to talk to me constantly. Oh boo-hoo, get over it!

Leave me alone, I can't be bothered today.

Aww, poor, poor Rosa, feeling a little depressed are you?

I said leave me alone!, Felicity's finally back so don't make my time with her miserable.

You can't tell me what to do, can't you see. I'm in control.

No, no you're not you can't be, you can't be in control of me.

Then how come I am.

Shut up, shut up, shut up!

There's only one way to get rid of me, surely you know that.

Of course. Of course! I pushed myself off of my bed and ran to the bathroom. I tripped over and smacked my head against the side of the bath tub, A single sob escaped my throat as I pulled myself up. I felt an icy hand tug at my jumper and I whipped around.

"Piss off!" I shouted at the empty space around me. Look who's insane now. The voice chuckled. "SHUT UP,okay just shut up! What is it you want with me!? I've gone insane, I've become depressed, I've slit my wrists, I've starved myself! WHAT IS IT YOU WANT WITH ME!?" I screamed and yet the laughter got louder, it was joined by other voices. Hundreds of voices, laughing, laughing at me. Me and my insanity.

I spun round, sure there was someone there, but there was no one. I was all alone, alone with the voice in my head. Once agian I felt the same icy cold hand on my shoulder and I jumped back, falling into the bath tub and cutting my hand, I felt the wounds on my wrists re-open and as I looked down I saw blood spill out of the cuts.

I struggled, pushing myself out of the tub and looked at myself in the mirror, but it wasn't me looking back.

"This is what you wanted isn't it, well now youv'e got it you sick attention WHORE!" The girl laughed and I screamed, punching the mirror with all my might, shards of glass stuck in my, bloody knuckles. You can't hurt me , i'm your conscience. The only way to destroy your conscience is to destroy yourself.

"Then that's exactly what i'll do." With that, I flung open the cabinet and grabbed the pills I placed there. There was a chanting of 'Do it. Do it. Do it' in my head as I tipped the pills down my throat. The chanting getting louder and louder until the pills were all gone. I slammed the empty bottle down and the voices stopped. I breathed heavily as dizziness clouded my sight,

I stumbled towards a window and flung it open, I climbed onto the window sill and balanced myself precariously on the edge. I looked to the side, and saw a small radio on the bedside table, I flicked it on. Classic F.M. not really my sort but it will have to do, I want here to be music when they find me, the cops I guess. Or more likely Felicity...

I closed my eyes, I suddenly felt drained. Oh God, what have I done? My breathing quickened as I imagined Felicity looking down at me, shaking her head and saying, 'What a waste'. An image of my mum crossed my mind, 'So disappointing...'. Image after imaged crossed my mind my friends and family talked about me, about how I'm such a disappointment to them, and finally...

Felix. He looked at me his face, stained with tears. He diddn't say a word. just covered his eyes with his hands and shook his head repeatedly. A single, broken sob, choked out of his throat as he turned and walked away. I felt my heart break as he left and snapped open my eyes, I souldn't have. All I could see was one blur of colour, It felt as though someone was slowly crushing my head. My arms and legs felt numb and I panicked I tried to get up but I was a dead weight, I made one last attempt to get off of the window sill but I couldn't. I felt myself slip out of consciousness and darkness engulfed me.

As the darkness took me over completely, I heard a faint voice call my name, but I couldn't make it out. My last thought was of my one true love, Felix, as I felt my body tumble off of the window sill.

There was no beautiful white light, no choir of angles to guide me into heaven. No, there was only ice cold darkness as my limp body smashed onto the pavement below.