NOT FINISHED Destiel ~ Roomates

Part 5

(This chapter is dedicated to @MatthewTrashCanWilli and her beautiful performance at our school event! And sorry for not updating in such a long time!)

* Dean's POV *

I dropped onto my bed and decided it was best to just take a nap and try to forget everything. I was still in shock from the news still, Sammy didn't deserve this at all. He was such an open book at times, but I never bothered to read him. I just thought of him as the younger brother I had to protect and yet I fucking didn't. I didn't protect him at all! HOW THE HELL CAN I LIVE WITH MYSELF!? HOW CAN I BE SO SELFISH!? SAMMY DIDNT DESERVE THIS!

But I do

I got up and went to the bathroom, locking the door. I made sure the knife that I had cut with earlier was here. I wanted to be wearing white, so the blood would make it red. I was already wearing white anyway, buy soon my thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door. "Dean? Are you in there? Are you okay?" Cas questioned as I began to prepare. "Hm? Oh yeah I'm fine." I replied before grabbing and opening one the bottles of whiskey I had hidden. "Liquid courage is the best courage." I told myself before I sat down in the tub with the knife. I chugged the whole bottle before I sighed and put it down. "Love you....Cas." I say before I begin to slit my wrists many times, opening the cuts that were beginning to heal as well. "I cut too many times" I realized before I blacked out.

* Cas' POV *

I was worried about Dean, I was hoping he was just actually using the bathroom but time was passing by and I was getting more worried by the second. "Come on Dean...please don't be doing what I think you're doing." I muttered before I got up and knocked on the bathroom door. "Dean baby! You've been in there for awhile now! I think you should get out now honey!" I said out loud, but I got no reply.  "Fuck." I said as I jiggled the doorknob to see if it was unlocked but of course it wasn't. I backed away from the door, getting ready to break it.

"Dean I'm tired of these damn games! I'm going in!" I yelled before ramming into the door with my side. The door dropped as I began searching the room, turning to see a horrific sight. Dean, bloodied and passed out was in the tub with a knife in one hand and whiskey in the other. "No..." I whispered as I backed away from the gory scene, I immediately grabbed my phone and called the police.

KANSAS STATE POLICE DEPT.

CALL DATE: 7-18-17

DISPATCHER: Katherine Barrasso

-TRANSCRIPT-

"911 what is your emergency?"

"Hello yes, um my boyfriend he...he's...."

"What is wrong with your boyfriend sir?"

"FUCKING CHRIST DEAN DONT DO THIS TO ME!"

"Sir? Sir, I cannot help you if you don't tell me what's wrong."

"My boyfriend, Dean. He um...he's passed out...oh god the blood."

"Blood? Sir is your boyfriend bleeding?"

"HE CUT HIMSELF! SO MANY TIMES!"

"Sir I have your address I am sending paramedics over right now but I need you to stay calm okay?"

*Inaudible words and moderately loud crying*

"Sir? Sir! Please stay calm and breathe slowly."

*Loud heavy breathing*

"Sir please breathe, the police and paramedics are on their-"

*Caller Hangs Up*

"Sir? Sir! Sir!? Damn it..."

-END OF TRANSCRIPT-

* Cas' POV *

I passed out after I hung up with the dispatcher. I felt numb, just the thought of losing Dean was extremely terrifying. I awoke to realize that I was in a hospital, and next to me was a frail looking Dean. I called out to Dean but noticed that my voice was hoarse, very hoarse. "Dean! Dean! Dean..." I called desperately trying to get an answer, "He can't hear you I'm afraid." A woman's voice replied smoothly.

I look at the entrance of our room and see a woman in a doctors uniform, I'm guessing she was our assigned doctor. "What's wrong with him?" I ask her worriedly; "So you must be Castiel Novak, and that's Dean Winchester? So he is related to the other one...Oh right! Deans condition...its bad. He's in a coma...and, you know...we don't know how long until he wakes up, that is, if he does." She replied solemnly. "Are...are you serious?" I questioned as I felt my heart drop down to my stomach. "Yep. I'm afraid so." She responded before adding, "Well I just came down to check on you two but I'm quite busy so I must get going. But I will check in on you later!". "Oh okay then..." I muttered before I attempted to sit up, but to no avail.