April 9, 2017 Dear Diary do you ever feel left out? Well probably not because I tell you all of my secrets and personally stuff. Lately I've been feeling left out by the ones I call "best friends". Does this sound right so when I used to like a boy your best friend (Mercedes) just starts dating him and then you feel sad and then she says, your not being a good friend towards me you are supposed to be happy for me but your just being jealous. I was thinking how am I supposed to be happy for you when you just start dating some that I've been like and then use the I liked him last year but I didn't tell anyone excuse.😑 Soon I had to suck it up and pretend that I was happy for them when deep down I was hurt, eventually she starting leaving me for him but I had my other "best friend" (Tanigha ) there for me. This happened around the beginning of the school year. On Friday the other "best friend" (Tanigha) told me that she dated someone, remind you I liked him first. It was at school when she told me and when she told me that she dated him my heart shattered I looked on the ground to see if my heart actually fell on the ground. She was talking to me and I had the disgusted face she said what's wrong and I said nothing then she said want me to break up with him I said no she said want me to come over today (I said no the only reason I said no was because when I got home I was gonna cry) she said what's wrong I said nothing then she was like want me to go back to class and then I said yes. For the rest of the day I was sad. She spend the night at his house Thursday and didn't tell me I had to ask her mom because she didn't talk to me for at lest a week. People use me for granted. She spend the night at his house Saturday once again she don't talk to me only Hey De'Ashija at lunch when I get my lunch she sit with him (he's on a different team). I need new friends. I wonder who's gonna be next Marian? Daniela? I've learned that I can only tell a few ppl things.
But look on the bright side today is my friend Carolyn birthday (#cantTieherownshoe) carolynkuga . We're on spring break lol I plan on going to someone's house so I can at lest feel a bit better. Shout out to the ones who still ride with me and haven't switched up on me the loyal ones. We need more loyal people in the world. 🌎. Anyone a YouTube head like me?😂 l just can't get enough of YouTube, YouTube is literally my drug. I plan on being a big YouTuber and inspireing a lot of people maybe even adults. Try to have a good day then I had week.
