Only You- Jade and Leigh-Anne

Jade 1.17

June/July, Aaliyah 4 years old, Haven 3 years old, Amina 1 and a half years old

"For fucks sake." I groaned, throwing myself over the toilet for the third time today. I wasn't an idiot, this was 100% morning sickness. I could deny it all I wanted but I knew this wasn't a bug or the flu. So much for the lets wait a few years to make sure this relationship is strong before we try for a baby plan. So much for my birth control failing me for the second time. My luck was clearly running out.

"Mammy!" Amina squealed, walking in with her chubby little legs. Her blanket was in hand as per usual.

"Hi sunshine." I mumbled, holding my arms out for her. Haven and Aaliyah were at school, so I was left with my one year old. Jed was back touring and I wouldn't see him for another few days. He hadn't seen me since a few days after his birthday, so he didn't have a clue what was going on.

"Icky mammy" Amina giggled, sitting herself down on my lap and looking up at me through her long lashes. "Kisses!" She smiled, blowing a kiss up at me.

"Thank you my love." I smiled, setting her down on the bathroom floor as I hurled myself over the toilet again. Damn Perrie for giving me baby fever, it was all her fault.

"Hah-ven, Aa-ee-ah go bye bye." Amina lisped, holding herself up against the shower door. "Wat-ah." She squealed, watching the tiny droplets of leftover water drop down from the shower head.

"Stupid fucking shower." I groaned. "Stupid fucking birthday sex, stupid fucking Jed." I continued.

"Daddy home." Amina whispered, her little diaper clad bum sticking out as her dress lifted.

"Not for a while Amina." I replied before my stomach started to churn again.

"Dada home?" She asked again.

"Soon baby, soon." I whimpered.

"Kay?" Her little voice squeaked.

"Mammy is fine, why don't you-" my phone rang, great timing. Just the person I was looking to talk to. "Yeah?" I answered weakly.

"Hey- Jade? You okay?" Jed asked. "You sound awful."

"Oh thanks." I mumbled.

"You okay? Do I need to come home?" He asked, his voice panicked.

"I'm, I'm expecting-"

"Expecting what? You order something?" Jed wondered.

"I'm-" I thought telling him, just getting the disappointment over with. "No, no just never mind" I mumbled. "I'm fine, just a bug, Aaliyah or Haven must have brought it home."

"I'll be home in a few days babe, just hang in there." He replied.

"Dada?" Amina asked, holding her hand out for the phone.

"I'll try to." I whispered, closing my eyes. I hated being pregnant, why was this a good idea? They say you don't remember pain and boy was that true. "Here, talk to Amina while I throw up." I sighed, feeling everything left in my stomach slowly start to move upwards.

"Blankey dada!" Amina giggled, holding my phone up to her ear. I could only hear his jumbled voice coming through the speakers. Part of me wished he was here, but the other part of me was glad because on the off chance this is just a bug he wouldn't be disappointed or mad.

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"You be good for mammy and eat?" I asked, wiping my hands on my dress. Amina looked up at me smiling as I set her lunch in front of her.