Drowned Out Love *ON HOLD

6. Not a Chance

POV: Trin's

"I shouldn't have done it okay!" I snap as we walk back to the car this time with me in the middle of the group. They hadn't said a word and I could tell a storm was brewing in Etric. Boy, was I gonna hear it later. "Say something," ugh why me, just why me. It's not like I got hurt, much. Okay, it'll bruise but it wasn't anywhere to noticeable. If you consider your wrist as an unnoticed part of the body. So now I'm just worrying myself into an early grave.

They probably don't know what to say or they aren't upset about it. I try to think optimistically, but I have a knot forming in my gut. Why was I even dreading this? I'm usually so indifferent to this kind of thing. Today has just been an off day for me first I'm seeing things then I try to act more 'friendly' by trying to smile more, then the park, and then what even happened in the bar.

That's it this is my end I'm going insane. Does my family have a history of mental illness? Should I ask someone? Surely that's not it. It can't be, I'm the emotional pillar of the palace. Yah today is definitely an off day. That's it when I get home I'm asking Etric. End of discussion.

Oh god, I'm having imaginary conversations with myself now. Get it together because the next thing you know I'll being laughing like a maniac. Stop that, just stop it, you aren't crazy, just... oh crap. I'm shaking now like a Chihuahua. I try to get it under control but the more I try the more I notice it. And then Carolyn noticed. She looked startled. I have never lost my composure like this. She stopped walking and touched her hand to my arm causing me to stop. From that, the other two stopped and turned around looking mildly annoyed. They probably thought I was trying to break away from the group again. I wasn't looking at any of them specifically. From the corner of my eye, I noticed Carolyn looking at me with a worried look.

"Why are you shaking are you okay? Did you get hurt?" She rambled off a few questions. The questions made me realize I had been wearing Etric's impassive face as my own. They know I have a normally unreadable expression but I don't shake, by any many means, ever.

"I'm fine," I mumble out. I hope I didn't stutter. Judging from their faces they didn't believe me, and stuttering wouldn't have made any difference. Metra was the first to speak, "You are definitely not fine." She turned her attention to Etric and to I wouldn't have heard what she said if I were human. "We have to get her back now. Something is very wrong with her," and Etric just nodded. How typical of him. It was as if he knew something. He knew something! With the conversation ending at that, we walked at a faster pace towards the car.

By the time we are in the car and heading back to the palace I'm not shaking as much, and think I'm actually worrying myself sick. The drive feels a whole lot longer than before. Then I notice it. I hear a hum that's is reminiscent of a computer fan in the back of my head. My goodness is it annoying. So I sit back and close my eyes. Little do I know I'm drifting to sleep.

I hear the absence of the car's engine but it doesn't quite register in my brain. Okay, we've definitely stopped because I hear a few doors open and close. There's also so murmured voices but it sounds like I'm under water. I don't feel awake. My consciousness drifts and I forget what it is that I am thinking about.

***** ***** *****

I'm on a boat swaying gently on a lake. It really is beautiful out here. There are these gorgeous picturesque mountains in all directions. There is a cool breeze that flows gently through my hair. It tickles. I can't help but let out a little laugh. I don't know what it is about this place but it makes me feel all bubbly inside. I rub the soft blanket between my fingers. I didn't even notice that I was wrapped in a blanket.

I glance around the small sailboat. There is no one else here. I don't know what makes me start humming but I hear a faint laugh. It almost echoes through the entire area. Who was that? I think I've heard that voice before, but I can't be certain. It sounds kind of motherly in my opinion.

***** ***** *****

"Nothing is wrong with her!"

"Really, how can nothing be wrong with her? You don't know her as well as I do, that wasn't normal."

"No, it isn't a normal occurrence for her, but it is for the alphas of the royal family."

I let out a deep breathe and open my eyes to see Etric and Doctor Shasta 'conversing pointedly'. They both notice I'm awake immediately and shut up. Why? What made them think that their conversation had to end because of me?

I see a scowl on Etric's face and apparently, so does the good doctor because he mutters something about being back later and leaves. My attention is back to Etric. "So what have you got to say for yourself?" he says painstakingly calm.

Yeah, you're in deep shit now.

Upon hearing those words I tense up. Etric notices my change in mood and looks at me confused as to what just happened.

Oh. My. God. You can hear me!

I have heard this voice before. Where is it... and then I remember the events of the previous night. Wait but how? There was no one else here. Then the realization hits. It isn't someone else it is my wolf. I am an idiot.

Not just any idiot. A ROYAL idiot. At least you figured it out on your own.

With those words, her voice starts to fade away. Well then. I look up and realize Etric is still staring at me. We had a short staring contest. Which he ended with a gruff, "What just happened?"

"I don't know ask my wolf!" I snarl at him. He looks surprised at what I just said. And it wasn't about how I said it but what my words had meant. The only way I could describe his surprise is to imagine he was just told that he was going to be a father. That is how surprised he looked which was strange because it's Him. He was officially lost in thought. Our conversation was over without a moment's notice.

Now that I think about it, he was probably talking to someone. My suspicions were confirmed when the doctor walked through the door. This time I was included in their conversation.