forgotten

chapter 6

I get home I automatically get in my room closing the door .

I sit alone and I feel like such an ass to act like that and now I really feel like I am tied I cant talk to anyone exept those who my friends accept like why ...why am I so afraid...they got nothing on me and harry was so kind to me .Is it supid that I womder whether we are still on our date ..wait what did I just think of it as a date ? I probably should call him .

I grab my phone and I remember I didnt even take his number .now what I should really call to apologise I am not waiting until tomorrow and I need to get some air

I grab my mum 's key car cause still my parents refuse to buy me a personal car until I graduate from school ...another reason that I need to pass

I walk around the streets and I stop by a Rest to get something to drink .

just when I entered I see harry .he is giving me his back and sitting with some guys and a bottle of whisky in his hand

I Go straight towards him

"harry" I tape on his shoulder just to see some other guy

"I am sorry I must've been mistaken

and I quickly get out I thought it was harry he had that curly hair and ohh .

I decide to return home

But first I decide to pass by the tennis courts .

I saw harry's car in the car lot and I am still hoping he is there

and I am satisfied he is there playing tennis with I guess his coach I decide not to enter there but I was standing Watching him play from distance He is really good that I think he left me win the last time

30 min later

he finishes and he was putting his racket into his Bag and I decide it was time to go in

"Hey You are very good at playing yiu sure you didn't leave me win" I say  calmly

he doesn't reply

"harry I understand if u are mad at me but let me explain" I say

"Why are you here ? "He says in a harsh tone

"I am sorry I am really am but you know I cant let tell anyone that we are friends "

"Do u consider this a friendship?" he says still a harsh tone

"harry there is some stuff you wont understand" I say

"So what were you planning did you really think that I am going to be a little secret cause you are ashamed to talk to me infront of your friends I am sorry but I can't " he says Staring to leave

no one has ever talk to me like that ever

"Harry please " I say and block his way

"I am sorry can we like go somewhere to talk and maybe drink something " I say

he starts laughing

"why are you laughing ?" I say confused

"Cause I cant be friends with you and I don't want to be a friend to someone who is embarrassed to say I am even his friend"

"ok you are probably right " I say

but I will try my best not to hurt you again  and I really want you to forgive me "

I say holding his hand

he looks into my eyes and I stare at them he is so ...beautiful

"Fine but prove me you are not ashamed and you can say that we friends isn't that what we are ?" He asks and I really dunno

"Thank you " I say Ignoring his question and ignoring the fact that I just promised things I cant handle

I hug him really tight and he does the same

"So now what do you want to do ?"he says with a little innocent smile on his face  and I feel relieved

"Dunno really ..but I would love to see your house if that's okay" I say

"oh yeah sure " He says opening his car door for me

"actually I came with my mum's car " I say pointing to the Mercedes

"oh no problem I will drive you here again " He says

I get into the car we playe some of the fray 's songs .

he pulls in front of a big hoise a really big one .

"is that your house ?" I questions

"yeahh..."he says

"It is nice "I say smiling

" thanks " he says smiling back

we get out and he of course opened my door .

we get in

" mum I am home" He says

"Harry I am in the kitchen" a British women says

we get into the kitchen his mum is from what it looks like preparing dinner

"Mum I want you to meet jane " he says to his mum pointing at me

"Hello " I say and we shake hands

"From where do you know each other? " his mum asks

"Jane is a friend from school "harry answers

his mum smiles at me  and I notice that she looks a lot like harry she is really pretty

we get out from the kitchen and harry showed me his room

"Oh really big room I like the colour " I say pointing to the blue walls

" blue is actually my favourite colour " I say

"it is mine too " I say smiling

harry sat on the bed  and I wander around the room

harry had some pictures on his desk I hold one and find a picture of him and a very lovely girl sitting on his lap .he must has a girlfriend and I am honestly a little bit disappointed and I am just about to ask but decide against it

as I was turning around harry was just behind me and I almost fall but he held me

And here we are in a quiet room harry holding me by my waist our faces only inches away no one is moving away nir breaking the silent and I am.not complaining  he leans in and I dont move I know we shouldn't but I can't fight it anymore he kisses me but I pull away just in a second to remember he has a girlfriend too amd I have a boyfriend

"We shouldn't harry " I say

"I am sorry " he says and turn around but I grab his hand and we get closer and I kiss him he  kisses me back and it is perfect 

we pull away and he was looking at me

"Can we not talk about it please " I say

and getting out of his room still thinking that I have never felt this way while kissing someone I have dated lots of boys but no one has ever made me feel this way .

it was dinner time

and we sit down just when I start to eat harry held my hand under the table really tight and I turn to him and smile and in that very moment I knew that Lots of things probably bad things are going to happen but I didn't care or think about it cause this moment was too perfect and I don't want to ruin it ...