Remember Me? - jikook

|16| Distractions

Jungkook's POV

"Fine." I told him. I was tired at this point, of constantly trying to make him believe, trying to make him see that we were together, that it was all real. But there he goes again, doubting everything.

I know for a fact that Jimin saw me in those flashbacks, he just doesn't want to admit to it, admit that he felt something for me. He was still too clueless and blind to understand. He probably felt feelings towards Lisa as well, hence the slight doubt in his mind.

Remember the promise Jungkook. Remember the promise.

I repeated this over and over again in my mind. I have to stick to it, I loved Jimin too much and I didn't want to make his life even more complicated and confusing, just say yes Jungkook, shrug it off.

I stood up from the bed and went to the bathroom, sighing my way there. The kiss replaying in my mind the whole time.

Why kiss me back? Why make me believe that he finally loved me like he used to do? Why?

"He doesn't remember anything Jungkook." I whispered to myself as I looked into the bathroom mirror.

I have to always constantly remind myself of the situation he was in, to always remember that he literally had forgotten everything.

but i will never stop loving him.

"Are you okay? I'm so sorry if i-," I heard him say as he slowly enters the bathroom, creeping his head through the door.

"No, i'm fine" I sniffed. "Don't worry about me, I understand Jimin. I'm not going to stop you from what you think you believe." I smiled at him, a very empty one.

"I just really don't know anything, and it's my fault for kissing you and making you believe-,"

"I kissed you." I told him. "I'm sorry, i shouldn't have done that. I should've understand your vulnerability at the time. I led you in, Jimin"

"But I continued it."

"Just forget it." I sighed. "But let's not drift away. Ill give you your space and time to think this through, just know that Ill always be here for you, no matter what choice you decide to make."

"Thank you Jungkook. Don't worry we can always be friends."

Fuck. Don't cry Jungkook, don't fucking cry. You promised yourself you wouldn't anymore. Shrug off the friend zone, shrug it off.

"Yeah" I softly said.

"Okay, Ill give you some space" he told me as he left the bathroom, closing the door.

Respect his decision Jungkook.

Do you love him? I asked myself.

Yes.

Then respect his choices.

It's time to stop tiring myself, it's time to move on.

But something in me wants to continue to try, try to make him remember.

Should I?