The Moons Servant

Call me Rose 🌹

---Lillian---

Its been a week since the funeral an I've been locked in gramma's house for a week. I don't know what's happening to me. I feel like I'm loosening my self the voice has gotten louder stronger more constant. I don't know how much longer Ill be able to push it away an ignore it. I'm going insane like momma. I need gramma back I need to know what's wrong with me I need help .........

                                                               ---Lovoette---
Sitting here listening to her scream for help it'll get quite for awhile as it has been going this way for awhile. The screams an panic attacks are killing me she's like my daughter an there's absolutely nothing I can do but sit here while she's in there fighting to hold on to her whole world together. I stand up an start pacing how can I sit here a watch my godchild fall apart.
'What are you doing here' i slowly turn. 
'Kamail look at her just stop for a minute an look at her she's not going to make the change if she keeps this up she's not eating or sleeping. she hasn't left the house in days now an she grows weaker with every passing day."

Anger growing in me I'm tiered of this tiered of watching from the side line knowing I could be there for her holding her comforting her pushing her fear an loneliness away reassuring her she's not crazy an to embrace who she's be coming. I look up at him with tears I'm my eyes "Please Kam ....bring her home....." I beg 

"You know as well as I do I can't do that he wouldn't except her she's a threat"

Rushing to interrupt but" what about the deal if she shows up ready by her 23 birthday its all hers. she can."

"Do you really think she ready to take on him has been training his whole life for this and she ..she hasn't even shifted yet her birthday is less than year away how do you expect her to be ready by then on top of all that she female no one will except her ...there will be uproar let it go when the time comes an everything settles."
"That's if she even makes it threw the change tomorrow night the full moons coming  Kam i pray to the goddess she's ready cases if not the repercussions will be on you."

Not being able to stand here anymore hearing her knowing I can't I take off running changing mid run letting her sorrows flow out in cries of pain.

                                                                       -----Kamail----  
I wish she would just stay home this is all hard enough with out her on my back. The council has been on my ass about finding her for the last six month. They want to force mate her to the upcoming Alpha making our pack even stronger. I keep trying to by time  trying to force them to believe i don't know where she's at but the last couple of weeks they have been pushing harder an I'm running out of excuses. They want to send out the best tracker we have i know he'll find her if they do. The northern packs have been pushing in on our territory for an  while. They will defiantly see her as on out but i refuse to let her be dragged down in this. She will make the shift tomorrow night an then the training will begin if she's ready for all this by the time her birthday rolls around then ill tell her the whole story.Till then nothing will be said Moon Goddess if you hear me i pray you give her the strength an endurance to handle what's to come i pray you give her peace for now she will need her strength for the coming days. Goddess help me

                                                                    ---- Rose----

Her body's growing weaker everyday. I feel her falling apart I'm trying to push her to be stronger i try an give her my strength its all that keeping her from falling apart right now. Why is she scared of me? why dose she ignore me an push me away?i don't understand i feel her pain an loneliness. She scared but not alone I'm here if she would just let me in i could help. Quit pushing me out Lillian your going to get both of us killed.