Ticci Toby x Reader ~ Broken Realities

Chapter 11

Y/N's POV
I wake up laying in my bed alone, in the cold. I look around and Toby is no where to be found. I sigh as I leave the comfort of the bed and try untangle my hair with my fingers. I sigh as I give up and decide to just leave it be. I walk out with my clothes all over the place and my hair a mess. I walk out to the kitchen and sit down somewhere. I look around and realize I'm actually sitting in the right place. Beside Masky and Hoody since Toby is on the other side of Hoody. I sigh and look down at the food in front of me. I realize it was pancakes and start eating it.
Time skip...
I was gaming out with BEN the whole day as I end up drifting off into the darkness. I let it take over my body as I fall asleep on his shoulder.
BEN's POV
I feel a weight on my shoulder and realize it was Y/N. I blush lightly as I save the game and exit. I pick up Y/N bring her to her room. She stirs a little in her sleep opening her eyes slightly before closing them again. I smile softly as I realize I've already reached her room. I sigh as I struggle to open the door. I finally get it and walk to her bed. I tuck her in as I give her light kiss on the forehead. I wish her a good nights sleep.
Toby's POV
I watch in jealousy as I see him kiss her forehead. I growl lightly and sit there pouting. She's mine and mine only. I shall make it so she loves me and me only.

I walk over to her bed as BEN leaves the room. I straddle her and kiss her face to wake her. I watch as she stirs and she flutters her eyes open adorably. I smile and kiss her lips as she kisses me back.

I pull away and lay beside her. Suddenly she's on me straddling my hips near my shaft. I blush as she continues kissing me. I sit up feeling completely vulnerable to her. I pull away and push hair out of her face. Her face is full of innocence but I know that it's not completely innocent... She's seen some stuff.

"I can't do this not right now love... I'm sorry." I say apologizing.

Her eyes change from innocent to a look of complete confusion. She gets off of me and nods.
Y/N's POV
I lay beside him as his hands are in mine and we lay like that for awhile.

"I'm sorry if I offended you by saying that..." Toby apologizes quietly.

I smile and shrug it off saying it's okay. I don't see why he would say that I would do that I mean it is about supper time right now. I get up since I kind've want to get food since I pretty much just woke up from my nap.

I walk to the kitchen and grab some food out of the fridge. I sit down at the table and try finish my food. Masky and Hoody sit right across from me. They also have food and they continue to stare at me for awhile.

Hey Y/N..." Hoody says in his shy voice.

"Yeah hey.." Masky says in a harsh tone.

I smile at them with a confused face. I don't know what they want but can't it wait, I want to finish my food. I look away from them finally as I continue to eat my food. Once I'm done I realize that they're still staring at me. I stare back waiting for them to speak up. They continue to say nothing so I just grab my plate and bring it to the sink. I sigh while walking getting pretty annoyed since I can still feel them staring.

I finally leave the kitchen and leave to my room. Where I can be alone for awhile... like it's always been. I close my eye and try to fall asleep. After awhile I finally drift off into the dark abyss where it's just me and the dark for awhile.
Time skip...
It's now dark out, the moon shines bright next to all the stars. I sigh as I've just woken up just now. Why did I take a nap. Now I'm just going to have to deal with my worries alone. I start shaking as thoughts enter my mind. I can't stop it. I just let it happen while I lay here helpless. Nobody to come to my rescue. Nobody to be my knight in shining armour. No one to whisper in my ear telling me it'll all be okay. While they hold me right in their arms. Holding me right reassuring me it's all okay.

That's all I've ever wanted for awhile, they never happen and they never will. Like always I'm alone with my horrible thoughts. Left to deal with it myself, I am my own hero. My knight in shining armour. As for holding myself, I haven't accomplished that myself. As for whispering in my ear telling myself, "it'll all be okay."

It never will, and never will anyone come to my rescue and take me away from my horrible thoughts.

Hey guys! Sorry for getting kind've deep... I just wanted to let that out I sometimes feel like this... Anywayssss hope you guys enjoyed!

Byeeeeee 💕