letters i'll never send

five: a letter to my heartbreaker

dear dyllan,

i loved you. i really did. and at some point, i think you loved me too.

but you found someone new. 

at first, i was extremely hurt and confused and angry at you- i didn't understand why i suddenly wasn't enough. was your love a lie? how could you do this to me? did i do something wrong? it hurt me even more that you didn't tell me. i found out from a mutual enemy that the boy i loved was with another girl. do you understand how messed up that is? tell me, dyl. did you ever really care? i had never felt more paranoid or hurt. not only did you leave me, you stopped talking to me. i wasn't your babe anymore. i was the girl you avoided. while you talked to my friends right in front of my face, you wouldn't even look at me. 

it took me months (longer than i'd like to be admit, tbh) to get over you and realize you did me a huge favor. i deserved better than you. i could do better than you. 

so thank you, i guess. thank you for breaking my heart and making me stronger. and thank you for apologizing.

but screw you for the way you did it. you suck and i'm sure all your other exes agree with me. 

sincerely,
chantey