Fears, Discomforts, and Others

Losing

This just makes me upset, so probably a fear, and not a discomfort.

I fear losing my family. I fear losing my friends. I fear losing people that matter to me, and I know I'll lose them far, far down the line, but that doesn't mean that I still don't think of how terrible it'll be.

I mean, I fear losing my family because they've always been there to support me, even in little ways. Eventually I'd have to find my own way of standing up, but it's nice to know I have some support for when I do fall. They will help me get back up, and I highly appreciate it.

I fear losing my friends because to me, that's my way of saying, hey, I can socialize! And here's the evidence!

It's not that I'm bad at socializing, I just don't always make the first move. I'm just...proud. I'm proud of me, I'm proud of them, and they always bring a little something. The something may be absolutely weird, but it's a nice little bit of color in my already colorful world. They bring just the weirdest things with them, and I love it. I'd hate to have the spontaneousness that they bring to be lost.

And then the literal losing people in crowds. It makes me uncomfortable, so, if you know me in real life, or if you ever meet me, I will always walk a little bit behind you, because then I can keep an eye on you and not lose you. Don't worry about me; I will be pathfinding​ my way to you.

I also don't like the idea of losing my way so badly that I can't find my way back. It's scary, because how far did I go that I can't remember how to get back?

Just thinking about losing family, friends, and people is a little detrimental, but I usually come out fine from having thinking fits.

What are some of your fears?