SwaRon SS You Me and Dreams

Chapter 26

"What did you mean by you understand how it feels to in that kind of pressure?" Sharon asked.

"We are supposed to talk about you." Swayam said with an eyebrow raised.

"Yeah, I know. Will you answer my question first?"Sharon said kicking the dirt on the ground.

"You know how I told you I changed my dream profession very often." Swayam said after a sigh. Sharon just nodded at him.

"Well, I never had life planned out. Everyone in my class had a fixed plan when we came to 9th grade while I just made up fake plans when I was asked about it. As time passed I was almost lost in the pressure of having your life planned at 16 and also the boards. My parents were always supportive but I always felt out of place, everyone had such high expectations from me like I would change the world in some way. My friends used to laugh at me when I used to say that I didn't want to be famous or so successful that people looked at me in awe. Well now I'm more than happy to not have a plan. It worked out just fine for me." Swayam said shrugging his shoulders at the last sentence.

Sharon nodded and kept quiet for few seconds thinking over what he had said. Finally she formed her reply, "You changed my life and I look at you in awe, so maybe you achieved little of what was expected. That's not my point. I just know how awful it is to be under the pressure of expectations but most people forget that not all people want to change the world and will do so, some people like us are a little selfish and want to live one day at a day surrounded by people who love us." She smiled at him and moved closer to him intertwining her fingers with his.

"Now do you feel like opening up?" he said after letting silence surround them for few moments. Sharon walked towards a bench near them and sat down patting the place beside her signing him to join her.

"You said your parents were supportive of you at each step of the way, right? My parents were the stark opposite. They wanted a boy but they ended up having a girl. I've heard it multiple times that if they had a son he would have made them proud and would obey their every decision. Whatever I did was never good enough for them because they always had the mentality that their son would have done better. It didn't help that they had this huge list of expectations I had to fulfil. It's also funny that during the first 10 years of my life they were still in denial and treated me like a boy." Sharon said laughing sardonically.

"Really? That's just..." Swayam replied.

"Kind of awful kind of funny. I know." Sharon said completing his sentence.

"When you said those things yesterday I just snapped because at that time it felt like being in a cycle of making other people happy." Sharon said again after a few seconds.

"I really didn't mean to control you or offend you in any manner; I just feel you'd want to follow your passion." Swayam said catching hold of Sharon's hand and making circles with his thumb

Sharon smiled at him and said softly, "I know you'd never want to do that. I was just wrapped in all my parents' judgement that your words just made opposite sense to me."

"I'm still sorry. I should have never agreed to talk about it at that time when I knew what would happen." Swayam said looking away from her.

"I forced you to talk about it." Sharon stated.

"And I agreed. It is partially my fault too." Swayam said. Sharon held up her free hand in surrender.

"Well then I guess apology accepted." Sharon said.

"Did you talk to your parents after that?" Swayam asked.

"Like that would be a good idea. I didn't even think about them, I was just thinking about how I'd hurt you and how I could fix it." Sharon replied.