Okay I lied about not updating my story anymore but I do have a lot of stuff going on right now so I'm not going to update every week, only when something happens. So over spring break something that put me down, made me sad, or upset to the point I wanted to hurt myself. I had the blade in my hand ready to cut but I didn't because I promised someone who means so much to me that I would never cut again. On Sunday I thought everything was going to get better cause I was going back to school and see everyone I missed but no. Everyday it kept getting worse and worse. I feel like that life hates me and wants to punish me for some reason. I cried a lot on Sunday night because my boyfriend broke up with me ): Monday came along and I didn't even want to get out of bed but my dad made me, i begged him to let me stay home but again he told me no, so I went to school all depressed, sad, and hurting. During lunch one of my friends told me that he need to tell me something. After lunch I asked him what he needed to talk to me. He said, "Jordan Jech might be coming back." Jordan and I have a history that i don't like, I really don't want to face him. I'm scared that he might be coming back. And I was already hurting and not wanting to face the world but now I was hurting and scared by the end of the day. I hide in my room for the rest of the day crying. Tuesday came along I thought nothing else was going to happen but I was wrong. I found out that my favorite teacher from elementary had died. I wanted to run away when I found that out. So now I was hurting and not wanting to face the world, scared, and now sad. Now I don't what is going on. Why does life have to hate me so fucking much to where it decides its going to make all this stuff happen to me all at once. Wednesday my friend who told me that Jordan is coming back. He told me during history he has to show me something so now I'm freaking out a little. But I'm going to update what I have so far and I will make a new chapter when something else happens.
