Something To Live For ❦ NaruSasu

Five

The ride back to Sasuke's house was mostly full of silence. Sasuke stared out the window, and Naruto just kept his eyes on the road.

Although, the blond decided to break the silence. "Are you feeling okay?" He asked softly, glancing briefly at the raven.

Sasuke shrugged. "I should've mentioned beforehand that I can't swim," he uttered, closing his eyes.

"You can't swim?" Naruto queried, and Sasuke nodded. "You should've told me. I would've never asked you to go. Why didn't you say something?"

"Because I didn't think I'd be getting into the water anyway."

Naruto sighed out. "I'm sorry."

Sasuke shrugged again. "It's whatever, I guess."

"One day, maybe I can teach you or something."

Sasuke looked at him. "Uh, yeah, no thanks."

"Why not?" Naruto asked, chuckling.

Sasuke didn't answer.

When they arrived at the raven's house, Sasuke got out of the car. "Bye, Sasuke," Naruto said, grinning. "I'll see you soon!"

Sasuke held up a hand and half waved, walking towards his front door. He glanced back slightly and watched Naruto drive away.

—

It had been only a couple of days since they went to the pool. Naruto hadn't shown up at Sasuke's house, since – due to his family wanting to spend time with him – he went camping with his family.

When he excitedly showed up at Sasuke's house the day after he got home, having the day all planned out for them, he was greeted by Itachi, who looked very tired.

"Hey Itachi!" Naruto said, grinning in his usual manner. "Is Sasuke home?"

Itachi let out a sigh. "No, I'm afraid he's not," he murmured, shifting from one foot to the other.

Naruto was a bit confused – his eyebrows furrowed. "He's not?"

Kakashi came to the door, wrapping his arms around his dark haired lover. "No, he's not," Itachi said softly, leaning into Kakashi's touch. "He's at the hospital."

Naruto's eyes widened, his heartbeat increased and his lips parted in shock. "Don't tell me…"

"He tried to kill himself two days ago," Itachi murmured sadly. "I found him unconscious in his room with an empty pill bottle in his hand."

Naruto felt the anxiety building up within himself. It felt like he couldn't breathe. 'He isn't… dead… is he…?'

Itachi brought Naruto inside, giving him a glass of water and making him sit down. "Calm down, Naruto. Keep your breathing even."

It took Naruto a good five minutes of troubled thoughts and increasing anxiety to finally become able to ask if Sasuke was still alive or dead. Part of him didn't want to know in case Sasuke had actually died.

Itachi nodded. "He's still alive, thank god." Naruto breathed out a sigh of relief at this. "I just got home this morning so I had time to do the things I needed to do before work."

"I need to go see him," Naruto said suddenly, eyes still wide, standing up. "Thank you for telling me, Itachi. I'll be going now."

"I understand."

He quickly left, driving to the hospital. He was worrying beyond belief still, despite the fact that he knew Sasuke was still alive. He just couldn't help himself. And never once did he think that Sasuke would try something while he was away. He should've considered it, but he didn't.

Once at the hospital, he asked which room was Sasuke's. The nurse told him, and Naruto quickly went to the elevator. When he arrived on the third floor, he quickly found room 237 and went inside.

Sasuke was sleeping, and Naruto thought he looked somewhat peaceful, lying there. The blond quickly seated himself beside the bed.

"You're such an idiot," he muttered, although rather sadly, not really sure if he was talking to himself or Sasuke. He shook his head, deciding it didn't matter – they both were idiots.

He found himself grabbing Sasuke's hand, holding it tightly. "Why?" He whispered, squeezing the raven's pale hand. "Why are you so hell-bent on dying? Why can't you realize that you have at least two people that care so damn much about you?"

—

Sasuke awoke about thirty minutes later to find Naruto, half asleep, holding his hand. He sighed, causing the blond to lift his head, his eyes fully opening.

"What are you doing here, Naruto?"

Naruto's eyes narrowed. "I'd so hit you right now if you weren't in this situation."

Sasuke didn't say anything, so Naruto kept talking. "Do you realize how worried I was before your brother told me you were still alive? I was thinking the worst possible! I was freaking out!"

"Whatever."

"Whatever?! That's all you have to say?!"

Sasuke shrugged, and Naruto couldn't stop himself from standing up, reaching over and slapping Sasuke across the face.

Both of them were rather shocked that Naruto did that.

"You're such an asshole," Naruto said quietly, sitting back down. Sasuke only stared at him. "I don't think you realize that I actually give a damn about you. Either that, or you just don't care."

Sasuke looked off. "I don't think that you realize that I'm done, Naruto. I'm done living a life I don't want! I'm tired of it! Why do you keep trying?!"

"I keep trying because I don't want you to toss your life away like it means nothing to those around you! It means something to me!"

"Oh, give me a fucking break."

"Just stop being stupid and shut up."

And Sasuke did, too tired to keep arguing. The two of them calmed down and Naruto fell asleep in the chair until visiting hours were over. He said goodbye to Sasuke and actually hugged him. Sasuke briefly, very briefly – yet it was enough to put a smile on Naruto's face – hugged him back.

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This was supposed to be out like a week ago but I got busy, oops cx