[[[ ENTRY; #103 ]]]
Ｊａｎｕａｒｙ １５， ２０１２
Ｄｅａｒ Ｓｏｍｅｂｏｄｙ，
I've made too many mistakes. I've got nothing else, nothing left. I've held on for as long as I could. Tomorrow will just be the same.
A repeat of never ending pain. That misery I feel will last forever. It won't go away. It'll never disappear.
God, he won't answer my prayers, so I question; is there even a God that exist? I use to pray like he was listening, but now I know, there might be nothing.
Where do I go from this? I've been following this narrow and long path to nowhere. At the end what will I see? Will there be a happy ending? Will God be waiting? Does he even exist?
I don't want to live like this. I have lost myself so many times, that I truly don't know who I am or where I stand.
It's hopeless. I'm hopeless. I'm pathetic. I'm nothing; worthless.
I have no friends. I've got no family. The only thing I do have, is this demon eating me alive. That demon is my depression, my pain, my dark world.
I'm hate it here. I'm lonely here. I'm nothing here.
I want to disappear. I want to sleep forever, and never wake up.
I don't like it here. I don't want to be here. I want to go. I want to go somewhere else, heaven or hell, either place seems better than here.
I can't do this anymore. I don't want to do this anymore.
I'm sorry.
Goodbye.
ʟᴏᴠᴇ,
ᴄʜʀɪsᴛᴏᴘʜᴇʀ ᴇᴠᴀɴs.
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Teen FictionChristopher is a confused boy, he doesn't know where else to turn to, or even who to go to. He doesn't understand why he feels this way, but he feels it strongly. He decided to keep a track of entries, and records, on how he feels, everyday. This ma...
