Dear Somebody,

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[[[ ENTRY; #103 ]]]

January 15, 2012

Dear Somebody,


I've made too many mistakes. I've got nothing else, nothing left. I've held on for as long as I could. Tomorrow will just be the same.

A repeat of never ending pain. That misery I feel will last forever. It won't go away. It'll never disappear.

God, he won't answer my prayers, so I question; is there even a God that exist? I use to pray like he was listening, but now I know, there might be nothing.

Where do I go from this? I've been following this narrow and long path to nowhere. At the end what will I see? Will there be a happy ending? Will God be waiting? Does he even exist?

I don't want to live like this. I have lost myself so many times, that I truly don't know who I am or where I stand.

It's hopeless. I'm hopeless. I'm pathetic. I'm nothing; worthless.

I have no friends. I've got no family. The only thing I do have, is this demon eating me alive. That demon is my depression, my pain, my dark world.

I'm hate it here. I'm lonely here. I'm nothing here.

I want to disappear. I want to sleep forever, and never wake up.

I don't like it here. I don't want to be here. I want to go. I want to go somewhere else, heaven or hell, either place seems better than here.

I can't do this anymore. I don't want to do this anymore.

I'm sorry.

Goodbye.

ʟᴏᴠᴇ,

ᴄʜʀɪsᴛᴏᴘʜᴇʀ ᴇᴠᴀɴs.

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