I'll Stay

Chapter 1

"I need to talk to you. I need to say something."

She remained silent as she slowly walked towards me. "What is it?"

"I can't do this anymore. I—"

"You wanna breakup with me?" She sat down next to me. I licked my lips and and nodded slowly. I really want to let her down gently. I really want to not break her heart as much as possible. I want it to be easy for her as much as it is for me.

Why is it easy for me? Maybe because I don't love her anymore. For the past few weeks, I have to admit, were the best days of my life. I can't believe I have done that but I—

I cheated on Audrey, and I don't even feel guilty for it. I know it's bad but it felt so good.

I loved Audrey, but I'm a man. I have my needs and apparently she's too "conservative and innocent" to fulfill them. She's so boring.

I need to stop lying to her. She's my girl for 2 years already and everything remains the same. Nothing new happens. Maybe that's why I was tempted to cheat on her.

"Why?"

My head whipped to her and saw her wipe her tears away. I don't know what to say. My mouth won't spit out a single word.

"Where did I go wrong? Am I ugly? Am I too fat? Was I—"

"I'm cheating on you."

She stood up and went inside the bathroom. Although the living room and the bathroom is distanced quite far, I still heard her sobs.

Fvck.

I walked slowly towards the bathroom door and knocked. "A-audrey. Can y-you please open the d-door?"

She didn't oblige. She just kept on crying. I don't want to hurt her but prolonging this relationship would cause her even more pain.

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I left her and gave her the space and the she needed. I went outside the house and headed to the park instead. Memories suddenly rushed to my fucking mind like a punch in the gut.

She started picking flower petals. Thank God she's mine. The cold wind blew her hair and fuck even the scent of her hair got me so high.

This must be the so-called love.

"You seriously need to stop melting me."

I laughed. "Sorry."

She smirked and intertwined her fingers with mine. "I love you."

I bit my lip, trying to keep my shit together and look cool, but fuck, my heart won't stop fucking beating so fast.

"I love you too."

Her eyes twinkled as if they were diamonds in the sky. She's literally a living perfection. I might sound fucking cheesy, but I really don't mind at all.

"Can you please escort me to the swing?"

Of course,dork.

I came back before dinner time.

When I went inside the kitchen, I saw her wearing an apron and was cooking dinner. I looked at her as if it was the first time, trying to feel the 'spark'.

But I feel nothing.

"A-audrey."

She turned around and faced me. "Luke. You're home, finally."