Bella From The Future

Chapter 15

Chapter 15

I took I deep breath even if I knew that I didn't actually need it.

"bella!" I heard seth called me as I woke up.

"are you alright?" he asked.

"yes, I'm fine." I looked at him. "you?"

"I'm fine, I woke up few minutes after I blank out but you take almost one hour, we are all worried."

It took few seconds before I cleared my mind and remember the things that I had been doing.

"where are they?"

"Jake is with you- I mean the human you at the woods I think they were trying to hide your scent with jake's."

"so they continue the teaching?"

"yeah, I said they absolute should continue that." I nodded.

"bella." "seth."

"me first." Seth nodded.

"can you tell me how did you get here?" I asked remember Diamond last word.

Seth will help you get back to your own time.

That was exactly what she said to me as she pushes me to fall to a black hole.

"I was passing the vampire territory when I noticed this old cabin."

"old cabin?"

"Yes, then when I take a closer looked I saw a letter in the front door. Then-"

"Then what?"

"Then It says tell Isabella to find me at her time." He stopped.

"Do you know what it means?"

"Yeah I think I do. it's time for us to go back." I stood up

"Finally."

"just wait a sec." I saw Edward talking to jasper. in a split second i was behind him.

"Edward, can we talk?" I asked.

They both froze.

"are you okay now?."

"yes, we are on our way back but before we leave can we talk."

"sure."

"follow me," then I smiled a little to hide my inner feelings.

"if you can..."

I heard jasper chuckled.

We ran more than 5 kilometer on the field before we stopped.

As I faced him. The reality of what will the future Edward will do or think about me, because of what i did, really scared the hell out of me.

"Edward..." i whispered. i tried to look straight to his eyes but i just immediately looked down at my feet. i'm so nervous i didn't know where to start.

"Bella..."he said as if we were just greeting each other.

"i know... you have so many questions you want to ask me-"

"yes,bella, actually i have."

"-but i wanted to say something to you first."

he didn't say anything.

"i-uhm... i'm scared."i said honestly,

Edward's body become tense.

"of what?"his voice was alarm.

i braced myself then i said it to him with my eyes looking straight at him.

"of ...you"

he didn't expecting that, no. not at all.

"i'm scared of what you will do or think of me when i come back. i don't know what to expect."

"i don't understand."

"i did something... really stupid." i started to explained.

"you never do something stupid, bella. crazy but not stupid."

"oh, trust me this time i did something stupid."

"what is it?"he asked. i sat on a big root at my left before i spoke.

"i-i left you..."

at first i thought he was going to shout but he didn't he just remain quiet while looking at me.

"why?"finally he asked.his voice and his expression was unreadable.

"for my own selfish reasons... and i thought... i really thought that i was doing the right thing... because i thought i was saving everyone, but i realized i was just saving myself."

"saving yourself from what?"

"my greatest nightmare."

"bella, can you just tell me what is it?"frustrated.

"edward... there are still things that you don't know about... things that i have no right to share or explain... because that was not my world and neither do you. but this i can tell, i left you because i'm so afraid to face my own personal hell."

"seems like what i did when i meet you."i froze.

"do you still remember, your first day? i thought you were some kind of demon, summoned straight from my own personal hell."i did remember but not too clearly. i just remember him telling me exactly like that when we were in the meadow.

"that is different..."

"no it's not..." he came closer until he was standing infront of me."we are all have our own personal hell, bella. and our first instinct to that was to run away from it as fast as we could."

"so you're saying..."

"what i'm saying is that you just following your instinct-" i stood up to faced him.

"edward, i left you... not just you also our daughter and you telling me that it was just instinct?"he seemed surprise about what i just said even i was surprised, i had no intention of telling him that we had a daughter.

"what i did edward was unforgivable. i still come here and wanted to change the future even if i know that if i do that reneesmee will never be...she never be-" existed. just thinking about it, makes me mad. what kind of a mother i am? i bit my lip. edward will never forgive me for this... even if he loved me so much... my family... and even jake.

as i looked at edward i know he was starting to connect everything that was going on.

"are you saying this to me because you're scared that i will not forgive you?" i didn't answered him, because he already knew the answer.

"bella-"

"edward... i get it, i will suffer the consequence even if i have to-"

"bella, listen... yes, i will be mad at you no doubt about that... but not for long." he lifted my hand, turning it this way that as i watched the sun glitter on our both hands. he held it closer to his face.

"at the end of the day you are still bella and i will still love you. " that words... my god that words meant everything.

"i love you too." i hugged him. my eyes felt strange and dry;they blinked against the uncomfortable feeling. i bit my lip. when i took my next breath, the air hitched in my throat, like i was choking on it.at that time i knew i was crying.