Dear Depression,

Entry 11

Dear depression,

I am writing this out, not for my depression but for my friends who have Wattpad.

I would like to start this off with I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything. The times I didn't understand. The days where I didn't seem like I cared. The times when I left and made you, April, feel that I will never come back. The times where you guys needed me the most I didn't see that. Do I expect "I'm sorry" to fix anything I have done? No....... but I do hope that it lets you guys know I am remorseful for what had happened. I will try to fix my flaws with my friendships. Will I promise that I will change? No, mainly because if I promise there might not be a guarantee that it will happen. I don't want to brake anymore promises.........

I would like to follow that with I love you all. Even when we are all laughing and making fun of each other. Even in the moments when the worst fights brake out. I love you guys. I honestly have no clue where I would be if I lost you guys. Yet I know that if I would have never come to y'alls lives....... they might be extremely different. Wether it be good or bad.

I don't always know what to say. But I want to listen....... wether I can do that is up to you guys. I seem to forget what my words mean to yous and I just ramble on and on. With out thinking how you guys feel about it. The last thing I want is y'all mad and sad. It's even worse when I cause it.

I don't know why I decided to write this. I don't even know why I'm thinking about publishing it. But I do know that when yous read this you will most likely text me and or comment. Don't deny anything for I know it's true. And don't feel bad and mad that I feel like this. These are my thoughts these are my feelings.

I feel like you guys might question if I mean any of this. And I do. Every last word is true.

I love you guys don't forget that. I care for you guys never ignore that.........