A butler i thought i despised

Chapter 2

(warning!!!!! Mention of rape and some smut is in here!! I'll warn you to skip when you get to it!)

I slammed ciel's door.

Anger and embarrassmrnt filled me. To think, my feelings of love towards him still grow. He treats me horribly. I winced at the hot tea and growled, getting into a spare outfit in my room and walked downstairs, my posture straight, but im sure not.

I heard a knock at the door and went to it, smiling when seeing lady elizabeth. "hello lady elizabeth, here to see my lord?"

"hello sebastian! And yes! Is he in his office?" elizabeth walked in, beaming.

"he is." i smile sweetly and hide my anger about the lord i work for.

"thank you!" she beamed, heading for the stairs.

"do tell my master that i went for a walk! I have to clear my head." i smile simply and head to the door.

"will do sebastian!"

I smile at her as a notion of a thank you before going.

I liked her very much. She's such a sweet girl and udderly, ciel deserves her....i know he doesn't love me, and it hurts...it hurts so much i actually..want to cry. But lady elizabeth reminded me of myself when i was a human.

I kept walking through the streets and sighed, but felt myself get pinned down in an alley way, i looked up to see grell, he grinned happily. I groaned.

"grell, get off."

"im not too sure, bassy! You're om your own!" grell had a crazy look, which disturbed me. He looked more insane than he was and i wanted to get away as fast as i could.  He smirked, grabbing his scythe and slashed at me. I moved.

I chuckled. "you must be f-" i gasped when he sliced me deeply and i fell on my side.

(warning. The rape scene is here, if you are triggered by this in anyway, pleass don't read.)))

I felt grell straddle me and he grinned, not bothered by my dark blood and took the fabrics of my clothes off me and kissed my neck.

"grell, you imbecile! Leave me alone!" i sneer and struggle, but he was stronger.

"shhhh...bassy you'll enjoy this soon~" grell nibbled on my ear before tearing our clothes off.

I was bleeding more and more, deathly pale and i felt grell ram himself into me over and over with sinful moans. I was in pain, shaking in anger as my body was sold in many ways.

"Grell..STOP!" i shouted, crying out in the pain from my deep wounds, that bled horrifically now and his member he went rough with. I just earned a punch, i struggled and felt him come in me, i silthered up in disgust and hot angry tears formed. I finally found my strength and punch grell off me, but he went and sliced me again.

I yelled out, he soon thrusted and grinded against me, not stopping for awhile.

When he did, i hit him with painful blows, sending him far before i painfully got dressed and.limped back to the manor, but i felt my vision blur and i ended up passing out in a bush.......

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Ciel

I sat in my office, listening to lizzy babble on about something i didnt care about.
But i had one thing on my mind, sadly.

Sebastian.

He never took walks, maybe he's still angry at me, maybe i should apologize??? I don't know. But i need to talk to him.

"liz, where'd you say sebastian went?"

"he just told me he's going on a walk to clear his mind."

"riiight..." i stood up, heading downstairs, sighing..but i was startled by a scream. A high ptched girl scream.

Bard.

"bard! Why did you scream!?!" i shout and walk outside, my words faltered, seeing a bleeding and half dressed sebastian. He looked horrible....

"it's sebastian!" bard cried out, picking sebastian up and bringing him in. Mey-rin and finny screamed when seeing sebastian, they went to a spare room and closed the door, leaving me in the hallway.

"BARD!! MEY-RIN!! FINNY!!! OPEN THIS DOOR RIGHT THIS INSTANT!!!!" i shouted and banged on the locked door.

"im sorry master but it's for your own good!" i heard finny say.

I slumped angrily against the door frame. Thats my butler in there! He's hurt! Wait....why do i care all of a sudden....?

I growled and looked up as the door suddenly opened and closed, bard looked drained, he looked sad.

"im sorry, young master. I don' think there's anythin else i can do for him...the wounds were..deep..real deep.....the stitches luckily are staying but he don't look to hot..his breathing is unstable......" bard went quiet for some time.

I was shaking.

No.
No
No.
No.

NO.

Sebastian can't die! He won't! I..i NEED him! I...

The next thing i thought caught me off guard...

I love him.....

"dammit bard....he's going to live! He just can't die over Stupid wounds!" i sneered in anger and sadness. Bard shook his head.

"w..we'll have to wait an see, my lord." bard smiled with sympathy. Soon the two other servants came out in tears, blood on their hands. I was allowed to see sebastian, so i did.

He was pail more than ever, well, more than he used to be. The wounds...grells..scythe.. Those could kill him...but...i don't want him to go...i want him here..

"sebastian.." i croaked out, scared to cry in front of the wounded demon.

I pushed a piece of his raven hair out of his face. He had...scratches..bruises..and tears...i was appaled when seeing bite marks on his neck.

Grell.....

Was one thought that i knew. I soon felt hot tears pour over my eyes.

"wake up soon, sebastian...that's an order."