13 Reasons Why

Cassette 2: Side A

I know I haven't updated this in a long time and I'm very sorry about it.

Welcome back. You're probably already wondering who's next, right? Hoping it's you because you want to know what you did? Basically you should all already know what you did, but you obviously never cared enough about me to notice how you hurt me. So here's a tip...everything has consequences. You should never hurt anyone on purpose.

Normally that's something everyone knows. You don't need anyone to tell you, that you should be nice to other people. But many people don't know this...or don't care about anyone but themselves.

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This made Killian think back to his pirating days. He then used to be very mean and rude to anyone, but he thought that changed when he met Emma.

That obviously isn't the case though. What did he do to his true love? He doesn't remember treating her wrong...

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And as I said the smallest things can hurt people, can have bad consequences. You should really consider this from now on, August.

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Killian balled his hands into fists. He felt like hitting something. He's never had a good feeling about August. And now he likes him even less.

In the past he only didn't like him because of the way he looked at Emma. A way that made Killian always very jealous.

But now Killian has another reason to hate the wooden man child. He hurt his Swan, which caused her death.

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Our story starts very earlier actually. Don't you think, August?

You and me were the only ones to avoid Reginas curse. We traveled to this land in a magical wardrobe and after that we were in the same group home. You were supposed to protect me, to be by my side, to be my friend. At least that's what you promised your father.

But you failed that promise. You failed him. And you failed me.

The group home we were in wasn't nice. It sucked there, but you still decided to leave me there. I was all alone just because you were too much of a coward to stay by my side. You rather wanted a simple life in Phuket with your friends than be with me.

Maybe you should've just stayed in the Enchanted Forest and be cursed too. Maybe than you wouldn't have turned back to wood. It's your fault. No one else's.

And if you hadn't wasted that spot on the tree I could've grown up with at least one of my parents. I would've had a far better life.

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So without August Emma might have never stayed the Savior for so long. The Charmings would've found out about the final battle earlier and Killian's Swan might still be alive. She might've found a way to win the final battle.

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And as you probably figured out by now, August, that wasn't the only time you failed me.

Do you for example remember the time you told Neal to leave me. Sure it was in the end his fault, but you're guilty too. As I said...small actions can have big consequences.

So you didn't only mess up my life. You also played a big part in me giving up Henry. If Neal would've stayed, I might've kept my little boy. He deserves better than being abandoned after all. Don't you think?

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Killian knew all too well, what it's like to be abandoned by your parents and his Swan did too, so the pirate can't help but feel bad for the boy, who has become quite an important part of his life.

Henry was still living with Killian regularly. He didn't move to Reginas completely.

That is probably because they need each other's comfort or else they'd go insane. They both miss the Savior terribly.

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A last failure of yours is also connected to Henry.

Do you remember when you first came to Storybrooke?

Silence.

I think you do.

At that time you tried to help me break the curse. Tried being the keyword here, August. You failed to convince me, that the curse was real and that I had to break it. That almost cost my son his life.

Henry almost died because of you and also because of Regina. But she failed me far more often than you and that story will follow later on.

Right now we're talking about you August, you might be one of my only friends, but you still failed me. And that hurts a lot.

If people fail you, whom you don't like a lot it hurts too, but it doesn't have the depth of when a close friend betrays you.

Killian never liked you, but by then you were already too much of a friend to me. I wish I would've been able to let you go then. I don't need your friendship. I would've been better off without it. I might even be still alive without it.