for him.

her.

so.. it came clear.
the woman you have loved before
wanted
everything to do with you.
immediately i started to think...
how could i have
let a stupid guy
break my heart.
and leave me
for
her.
as a 14 year old girl,
it took everything in me
to try to understand.
then she popped back into the picture.
the woman
that hurt you so bad..
the one who
went behind your back.
and did the unspeakable to your heart.
but you know what they say.
if you love somebody,
fight for them.
but for, she did not love you.
nor does she now.
she was... how do i say... "using you."
you listened to her.
when all she did was tell her friends
shit about you
that was meant to be kept hidden.
you let her in.
when all she wanted to do was take your heart
and smash it.
so so hard.
you did not realize this, for you were too busy
thinking about
her looks. and the words she made up
to keep you around, to make you stay.
its funny how
i clearly saw what was happening..
but you did not.
but i understand now why you didn't.
for i have felt
how you felt
at that moment in time, for months.
i let you use me.
she used you.
maybe it passed on.
maybe not.
but i most definitely will always despise
the topic
of
her.