The ways of love (Complete)

Chapter 16

Only a few people knew about her pregnancy. And after tragedy.. no one talked about it.Once Nick tried to speak about it, but it was all. Journalists didnt know about it. Only Nick knew about her pregnancy. Michelle never talked about her pregnancy and miscarriage  with Angel,Kevin,Nicole. Even Joe didnt talk to anyone about it. Even during the heavy period or in the hospital.

So now, when they were alone ........ all their secrets and pain of the past had come to light.

And it was a lot.

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  You know how it hurts When Everything Falls Apart
And it Seems like the world is crashing at my feet
You like me the best, When I'm a mess
When I'm my own worst enemy
You make me feel beautiful
When I have nothing left to perform
And I can not imagine how I'd make it through  

Joe couldn't take his eyes off Michelle. He couldn't believe that he finally found her and had her back in his arms, where she belonged. His heart and body ache.

Joe and Michelle were now on the couch. Joe sat and Michelle had her head resting on his thighs, legs stretched out to the side. During this moment of silence, Joe stared at Michelle and stroking her hair. Michelle had her head resting on his thigh and drew different shapes on his thigh.

"I do not know how I can  apologize you enough for all that I let you pass." He said quietly, breaking the silence in the room. "I made a lot of bad decision. Now,  when I'm replaying all the memories in my mind...  I know. I can not believe I did those things. But please believe me when I say that I never meant to hurt you. I know that my behavior has different, but you was light at the end of the tunnel . You are my sun by day and the moon at night, the center of my universe. "

Michelle swallowed and leaned her face to look at him. 

"Believe me, darling, nothing that happened was not your fault. It was never about what you did or did not do. You ..." he sighed, "You were perfect in every way. I was fucked, and at the bottom. to the hospital, I had to go a long time ago. I know that. You can't for it that I could not stand them and found professional help. it was my decision. "

"Many things have happened because of me."

Joe put his finger to her  lips to stop the torrent of words that followed, shaking his head. "You know that's not true. You saved me. Yes, I was out of control ..But you still saved me. If not for you I might already be dead."

"How did we get into this situation, Joe?"

"I was stupid and I did not appreciate what I had. Or as I should. And believe me, it constantly blame myself. I was a megalomaniac idiot. I try not to live in the past and look ahead. Make things right and move on ... with you. I know that I deserve another chance for everything I did. I do not deserve you. I know, "he took a breath and continued." the only thing you ever guilty of is that you were perfect. "

"I was not perfect, Joe."

He shook his head. "You are, but our situation wasn't." He sighed. "I want to do it right this time, Michelle. More than anything in the world."

"I do not know Joe."

"I do not sweetheart. But I promise you, I swear I'll do anything for it, so we were where we were ... no, this time it will be better than ever. I'm not going to go back to my old life. Yes, it will tempting to admit it ... but not giving in. I'll never hurt you again. Or myself. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. "

"Joe .."

"I missed you so much my little angel. Every day without you was hell. I lived with heart outside my body. All I could think about was you, how are you and the things that I  wantto do with you ... this time better, to prove those that I can give you the life you deserve. We can have everything what we wanted. that's what we went through and are going through made us stronger. it's past even though I wish I could change it, I can't .. But it's past. Just past . "