Short Storys

Your Letter

I didn't expect to see her there at my door. Let alone on a cold gloomy day. It was cold enough to see my breath and the cement was still wet from previous rain. Yet there she was. I wondered how she even found my address but I didn't bother to ask. There was to much on my mind.

"Jay" her voice. It was harder then I remember. The phone calls at night her voice was sweet and soft like cotton candy. But now I noticed how jagged it actually sounded. How husky her words formed.

"Silver." I responded and the response I got back, a small scoff that sounded half sarcastic half hopeful. Her hair was as bright as I remember. Shinning like fire embers floating away. "What are you doing here?"

"Cause that's an appropriate question." Her remark didn't catch me. More like it got me confused as hell.

"It is." I folded my arms. "Why are you here?"

Her reply was quick. Like she wanted it over with. "I have family here." she paused containing herself. "I'm visiting them."

"Hm." was the best thing I could think of. She shoved something in my chest looking down. I placed a hand over it to hold it in place looking at her confused. "That's for you." She couldn't look me in the eyes. She just kept staring at the ground hands balled into fists.

"What?"

"I said that's for you. It's yours." She turned around to leave and I snapped.

"Why are you doing this to me!"

She stopped still as a statue. I couldn't even see her breathe. "How could I do this to you? How could I do this to you?!?" she was yelling now and turned back to me looking me in the eyes rage showing, sparking in her eyes. "Two fucking years I waited for you to text back! Two. Fucking years!"

"You never texted!"

"I lost your contact! I couldn't find you. Trust me I tried so damn hard."

"You could of just-"

"I wanted to text you so I searched and searched till I figured if you fucking cared you would text me. You never did and every day I thought this is how you know he doesn't love you anymore."

"Love? You're the one who rejected me. I asked you and you said no. You couldn't handle it!"

"Neither could you! I knew you couldn't. You would find someone better and you did so fucking fast. I thought you cared. But you just forgot me like a lost sock."

"Oh boo hoo. Always whining. Thinking nobody cares. You're all alone no one loves you. You never thought I cared-"

"I knew you cared! I thought you did. I trusted you. I thought you would never leave me. Like you promised." through all the yelling I couldn't tell she was crying. She never cry's. Besides she can only cry out of one eye. "But I guess I thought wrong." She wiped her eye and let out a breath.

She turned around and started to walk away.  I couldn't just let her leave, not like that. " Wait. Where are you going?"

"Who fucking knows. I have shit I got to do."

"Will I see you again?"

She laughed. "I'm leaving. Forever. Just...just read the letter." I looked down at my hand seeing a now crumpled up envelop.

Her phone went off signalling she got a text. "I've got family waiting." She mumbled something after but I didn't focus on it. She then looked me up and down. "Bye...Jay." she turned to leave but all at once she rushed at me embracing me in a hug. It felt like the sun after rain. Warm and cozy. I heard her voice soften -the cotton candy voice I remember- and whisper "I didn't want to have you remember me last in a fight. Please don't remember me like that." All of the sudden the cold came rushing back and she was gone. "Silver? Sliver!?!" I called again looking all around. "Elliot!" I called out. My voiced returned echoing back haunting me. I knew she didn't like her name. But I needed her back. "Elliot" it came out a sobbing whisper. Barely heard at all. I walked inside straight to my room avoiding anything and everything and placed the letter on the dresser in front of my bed. I stared at it. For how ever long, I couldn't tell you.

The next day I stared at the crumpled up letter scared to see what was in side. I didn't open it till the next morning. I couldn't sleep at all thinking about it. It read

Hey. So. I found you. I hope I wasn't and idiot and gave this to you the day I got to Illinois. Knowing me I probably did. I want to see you. And not just on my computer screen. It's been a while. Hasn't it. I tried to find you. But by the looks of it you didn't care. Well you cared. Just...not enough. I did care Is she pretty? Who? The girl. Your girl. I can't get the thought out of my head that....that after what we did that's all you wanted. Was that enough for you? Was I an achievement to unlock for you? What? No! I loved you. What we did was amazing. I guess I'll never know. Either way it doesn't change the fact that you are apart of my story. I wrote you this letter to tell you why I....why I finally went through with it. I finally did the thing we both feared Jay. I'm gone for good. No. No don't let it be true. You were my best and only friend for the longest time. Even though we lived in different sides of the country. You helped me meet so many other friends from around the world. I can never thank you enough for that. Because of you I met some people that are very important to my story but those people are for later. Now this wasn't a spare of the moment idea. This took forever to make and I'm not close to finished. But i guess that's how you know you're committed right? God that was such a cruel word. Committed. I guess that word will change for you won't it. Anyways. By this time I'm on my way to Sweden to give the love of my life his side to this story. Well I guess he wasn't the only love in my life though right. I mean I loved you didn't I? My family doesn't know. I'm leaving on a 5 am plane after two days of being in Illinois. I've bought every ticket to every place I need to get to finish what I've started and they haven't even noticed. Well that will change won't it. I'm glad we met. I'm happy you confessed to me. I just wish I didn't lose your contact. The day I lost it was the same day I was hung over from the previous night when I was drunk off my ass and spilled to you about how you never texted me how I couldn't get you off my mind how- I remember that night. All I asked was if you were okay. That's all I did. I never texted you back when you said you were fine. I should have texted you  back. I missed you. Cause I did miss you. Um. Let's go back to when we met. How we met. I realize now you were on that sight to find someone to dirty- Please. No. I know why I was on there. I'm glad I was on there just please. Don't do this. I need you.

I skimmed through the rest of the letter, my head spinning. I can't read this anymore. I looked at the time 5:00. I stayed up for two days straight and now I can't even finish this damn letter it hurts to much. It's all of our memories. And now? Now she's gone.

A/N: I wrote this after ERMS During the summer of 2017 I think. A lot of this one is based off of when I was hurt and fighting with a friend of mine. Quite a bit of this is true about my life at the time mostly the people but it is still fiction. Fun Fact the crying out of one eye is actually an attribute I personally poses. I actually can only cry out of one eye and it is EXTREMELY rare for me to be able to cry out of both eyes at a time.