Eren X Levi One Shots ❃ Ereri

Talk Me Down

'Eren.' Levi sighed, memories flooding his brain as if it was an attack- a tsunami. It pounded at him like a battering ram until he felt as empty as he looked. His eyes were swollen and his cheeks sunken. Tears stained his cheeks like paint, splattered inconsistently across his face and hands.

I wanna sleep next to you

Levi hadn't talked to Eren in weeks now. Not by Eren's fault, of course, it was Levi who hadn't visited. It had been even longer since they had talked face to face, not that could ever happen, anyway. Eren was simply stone and mud now, communicating wasn't as easy as it had once been.

But that's all I wanna do right now

Levi wanted to visit, wanted to lay a bed of flowers on his mound but he couldn't find it within himself to talk to the boy again. He had died too young and suddenly, Levi felt all too old. How was is it fair that Levi had reached the age of thirty and Eren hadn't made it to twenty? How was it fair that Levi had lost the shit-eating grin and those bright cerulean eyes? How was it that everything he cared about had gone?

And I wanna come home to you

'Eren, come home.' Levi whispered, his voice catching in the air and drifting away before anything more could be done. But, Eren would never come home. Dead was dead, that was a simple truth.

The question was, why couldn't Levi die instead?

But home is just a room full of my safest sounds

He snuck under the heavy blankets, wrapping himself in his own personal cocoon- hiding from the world outside. He felt like a child- a silly, little child. Maybe he was now, grief could have any number of effects on a man. Maybe childishness was the one that had been forced upon him. He wallowed in the fact, it seemed so disgusting yet so comforting. He wanted to be a child again. He wanted to have his mother by his side to comfort him. He wanted the privileges of having no fear of death, of himself or of others.

Cause you know that I can't trust myself with my 3AM shadow

Throwing the blankets off him, the thoughts dissipating, cold air hitting his legs like ice. He stumbled around not finding a light, therefore resorting to his phone torch, letting an eerie glow flood the room. The bathroom was only a few paces away, he could make it without falling. Yet, at 3am, he felt he couldn't trust himself to stay awake nor could he trust himself to even walk. All he could see was his shadow, looming in front of him, an enlarged version of himself. That was what he dreamed to be. A giant. He wanted to look down on those petty humans and laugh at their sadness. Laugh at another version of himself.

I'd rather fuel a fantasy than deal with this alone

He gave up after two steps and fell back onto the comfort of the bed, letting his eyes flutter shut, the moonlight still shining upon his eyelids creating a white, ethereal glow in his vision. He wanted to sleep, he wanted to forget, he wanted to dream. He wanted to dream and think of better things. Better visions, better futures- a future with Eren. An alternate universe in which they stayed together forever, married with children and a smile on their face.

That wasn't going to happen to him now, was it?

I wanna sleep next to you

'I miss you, Eren.' He mumbled once again as if talking to the boy like he was just weeks ago as they lay across from each other on the bed, smiling and chatting away until the sun came up; Levi grimacing at Eren's bad attempts at flirting whilst Eren put up with Levi's constant complaining. They were a good match when it came to it. They had chemistry...they had love.

But that's all I wanna do right now

Levi let tears fall. It was too late, too private, to hold back. He didn't care even if someone did walk in yet he was glad for the privacy. He laughed through the tears, reliving the fond memories of the boy. He loved him, he really did...and he hadn't even said it.