Closer -- Rocky AU

THEIR OWN WAY

~Alyssa~
|New York City,NY.Few days later.|

Sleep.Here's a thing I haven't done in a long while.I spend the entire nights awake with my thoughts and feelings.My head wanders what happened between us.Did he plan on fooling me all this time? What we had was even real?

Rocky.

When I close my eyes,he shows up to me; Smiling,singing.He is in my every dream.It's a torture.A true nightmare.I put my walls down for him.I opened my heart.I let myself get involved.I let myself plan an us.An us in the future.How could I be so stupid? I let him in! Maybe the saying is right.

"All the writers have soft heart.The ones who are more prepense of getting their heart broken."

Worst,yet now.I know his family.At some point,I'll have to see him again.His sister is so kind.She instantly makes you feel happy.And Ross dated my best friend,my baby Courtney.At some point,we will have to see each other.We will have to be friendly.I will have to bottle my feelings up and move on with my life.

The thing about not sleeping is that in this incredibly fucked up situation,I'm inspired.I have this plot line in my head.It's going to be the best one I've written so far.It just needs more work and more thoughts.I need to come up with an initial draft.Funny thing,uh? How my heart broken gives me inspiration.

'Alyssa,are you listening to me?' Tom snaps his fingers to catch my attention.

'I'm sorry,Tom.Could you repeat?' I ask my manager nicely.

'We have to go to Los Angeles.For your meeting with the writers of that CW show.' Tom reminds me.It's true,though.After my episode of Shadowhunters aired,I started gaining offers to write more shows.

'Riverdale.' I recall.My long time friends,Cole and Camilla are on the show.I met them here in New York.I will probably do it.It's a good show.Good plot line.

'Are you doing it?' Tom asks me.I am so not in the mood of discussing business now.

'Alyssa,you've got to act.Undestand?' Tom exclaims yelling at me.Tom and James have been insupportable with the Rocky thing.Just let me fucking be!

'Thomas,quit it ok? Just text me when I have to be in the airport.' I say getting up and walking out of my manager's house.

Tom asked me to come over to his place in the sole propose of making me leave my apartment.But I'm a writer.It's what I do when I'm upset.I write,and right now,I'm having a writing dramatic moment.It is breaking my heart.But my writing is glueing the pieces together.

After I left Tom's,I just walked.New York is so busy you're sort of pushed into the city vibe.Walking in the city crowded with people makes you feel like your problems aren't really that big.In a city with almost 20 million people full of problem of their own,you don't exactly feel alone.So,I walked and walked and walked.

To end up just where we started.

Once I sat down in the bar in the same spot of where me and Rocky met.I was having a fun night with Tom and some of our friends from London,when I walked to the bar to grab my Cosmo,he approached.He smiled; made a fun joke.He had me.He had me from day one.

All the memories from that night pass in my head.It makes me smile,truly.Makes me happy every time I think of that night.We had interesting chats.Rocky is an interesting man.It was a long talk,full of different topics.It was nice! I met a nice cool fun guy and I had hours long conversation with him plus I was bored.It was perfect.

Perfect doesn't exist.I keep forgetting it.

'Miss,can I get you anything?' The barman asks me.I look at him quickly.It wasn't the same from that night.