Big Bang Little Sister

Chapter 31

I walked around the block with no destination or what so ever. Its around evening already, and I'm freezing my ass off here. I couldn't even book a room in a hotel because my old landlord has not give my money back, so I'm penniless right now. And to add it all, my phone died a while ago so I couldn't call anybody.

Not that I have anyone to call anyway.

The only persons that I thought would have my back when things like this happen had turned into the biggest judgemental bitch.

Kinda pathetic if you ask me. They acted and named themself as my family, said things like what's important is not blood, but what is  connected to the heart, and blablabla.
But when the storms came into my life, they distanced themself from me, and called me names. Like WTF? Is that what parents this day did to their child?

If its true, then I'm definitely lucky not to have them in my life.

They bring happiness and joy at the beginning, then add the misery when problems crashing in.

Like they said, it was good while it lasted.

I should've known from the start, that any type of relationships wouldn't have lasts long with me. I brought trouble whenever I go. But I guess, a small part in the bottom of my heart was lonely. It's craving for someone to be there. To be the shoulder to lean on, ears to listen, and arms to comfort me when I need it.

I never had any friends nor boyfriend before. A side bitch and a fling , yes. But not someone I would share anything with. I mean yes we hang, we talked, we laughed and all. But thats it. They're just an acquaintance to me. A filler on my free time, so I wouldn't look like a completely loser.

But now that I'm all alone in this cold empty bench. I've never felt the need to be with someone this strong before.
The loneliness is eating my heart out, and in a few minutes later, I know that I would need some tissues as well.

I don't have the money to buy a tissue, but I could always use my T-shirt so its okay.

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I sighed and lift my head up to the sky. The moon was shining brightly tonight, and along with the stars, they light up the night.

Just like how they light up my path in the middle of this storm. A sad smile sneak into my face. Even though, I'm all alone in this storm of life. Even though, I'm cold and penniless.

I knew

That everything's gonna be okay.

I'll figure things up.

And make my way up again.

Because I'm strong.

And I would not break under any pressure.

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I fell a sleep on the cold bench that night, with a sad smile lingering on my face. Completely oblivious that someone has walk up to me and whisper softly in my ears.

'What're you doing to me? '