As Brendon walked into Ryan's hospital room, what he saw ruined him. He saw a small pale, skinnier than usual Ryan, laying in the bed hooked up to some machines, bandages around his arms and an IV sticking through one of the bandages. As soon and Ryan saw Brendon his eyes lit up, but immediately dulled as he saw the look on Brendon's face. "Baby!!!" Brendon whisper-screamed. Brendon ran over and hugged Ryan, not to hard because he didn't want to hurt the fragile boy. He kissed him on the top of the head, then sat down in the chair next to him. He took Ryan's hand in his and whispered "Everything will be okay"
The next day
Ryan was getting released today. He was so exited to be released, all he wanted was o go home and cuddle and watch movies with Brendon. But Brendon had other plans. "Baby, can we talk?" Brendon asked. What oh fuck what if he doesn't want to be with my because of what I did oh no oh no what is he gon-
His thoughts were broke off as Brendon pounced onto him sitting on his lap, kissing him. "Baby don't you ever hurt yourself again, you understand? Not just for you, but for me too. For a minute I thought I lost you. My whole world. When I saw you laying on the bathroom floor everything just stopped. I couldn't think. I couldn't move. I just broke down. Baby you don't deserve to be hurt. Don't ever hurt yourself again please baby?" Brendon said, his voice breaking when he started to talk about Ryan laying on the bathroom floor. Ryan eyes were watering, but all the sudden he broke and full on started crying. "O-okay, I'm-im sorry" Ryan managed to say. He buried his head into the crook of Brendon's neck. Brendon held on to him crying and repeatedly kissing the top of his head.
About a week later
"Beebo, I want a kittyyy" Ryan whined as they walked past a pet store. "Someday baby, someday" Brendon said looking at a dusty orange colored kitten. "Beebo I want that one." Ryan pointed at the kitten. "Please?" Ryan said sticking out his bottom lip. "Fine..." Brendon said giving in to Ryan's cute ways. Brendon walked over to Ryan, and wrapped his arms around his waist, and kissed him. They would feel people's eyes on them but they didn't care. They loves each other and were not going to hide it. "I'll name him 'Cheeto Dust'" Ryan said snuggling the small kitten. "Cheeto Dust? That's a creative name" Brendon giggled. "It works tho!" Ryan and Brendon both bursted into laughter. Brendon loved this boy so much. So much that he wants to spend the rest of his life with him. He just hoped Ryan felt the same.
