TRIGGER WARNINGS SELF HARM AND SUICIDAL MENTIONS
It was a regular Friday night for Ryan Ross. Just sitting around on his computer, phone and eating. Just the usual. You see, Ryan has severe depression and anxiety. He has attempted suicide 3 times, one of which the time he almost succeeded, he was in a coma for 3 weeks and not one single doctor thought he would wake up. But he did and here he is. Ryan shut down his lap top and took a look at his scarred wrists. He was about 2 months clean, since he had met Brendon he had stopped. Brendon was currently out of the state, visiting his friend Dallon. Ryan wished he had friends he could visit. That's it. Fuck this. I'm done I can't take it I crave it so badly. I need to cut. Brendon will be back tonight so I have to make it quick. Yes Ryan, do it. Cut your skin so deep. Nobody loves you. Brendon doesn't care about you. He's just bored and needs a buddy. "SHUT UP!!! AGHHHH" Ryan screamed at the voice, the voice he knew so well. Ryan walked over to his medicine cabinet and found his blade. He sat down on the floor crying and took it to his arm. He cut deeper and deeper, every cut deeper than the one before, it got to the point that he was loosing so much blood he was getting dizzy. He hoped Brendon wouldn't be home soon. One more Ryan, just ONE more. Make this one the grand finale!!!! And with that command he did. Right as he did that his vision gave way and he slipped out of his consciousness.
30 minutes later
"Ryan! I'm here!" Brendon yelled, surprised to not see Ryan anywhere. "Ryan?!" "Ryan where are you?!" Brendon kept yelling, and running around the house until he looked into the bathroom. What he saw ruined him forever. It was an unconscious, bloody, pale Ryan Ross laying on the floor. Brendon started crying/screaming at the same time. He screamed so loud. He didn't know what to do, so he crawled over to Ryan and held his limp body, still crying, and called 911. Once the ambulance got there Brendon was a complete wreck. They rushed Ryan out on a stretcher into the back of an ambulance, as Brendon quickly followed. "Uh sir, what is your relation to Ryan?" A woman asked, too calmly for the situation at hand. "I-I'm his.. h-his boyfriend" Brendon exclaimed still crying. The lady patted his back and let him go. Brendon hadn't ever shaken this hard in his life. Once they got to the hospital, things hadn't gotten any better, Brendon hated the hospital. It reminded him of people dying. He didn't like the thought of it. And being in a hospital didn't help him with that. A brown haired nurse came out, holding a clip board, and asked "Anyone here for... Ryan Ross?" Brendon practically squeaked as he jumped up from his uncomfortable chair, following the nurse, still shaking. Once they got to Ryan's room, she let Brendon in, and what he saw was horrific.
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Ooh there's a cliffhanger hahaha especially to sierrarocks18
