RANDOM THINGS IN MY LIFE

Life's getting better

This is gonna be like the last chapter,I'm sorry if you have any problems with that

Hey people, I'm still alive, I know amazing I haven't started cutting either so improvement is being made in my emotional condition. I made some friends this week witch has given me another reason to not,well, killmyself . So they're names are Riley, destiny, Haley and then just started talking to Sara again, it's exciting how just meeting nice girls that like eddsworld can make depression a lot better and easy to deal with.

I'm shocked on how much better it is just because of this tiny thing that would normally mean nothing, mean everything to just a depressed 12 year old, me the awkward depressed, anxiety filled girl, can just make friends and feel so much happier, I know it sounds like it's not real, but it is. I've actually never been happier then I am now , and just some normal girls who don't even know they've done this much too help, have helped more then anyone ever has.i know it's sounds cheesy, but I'm not lying about it. I couldn't lie about this not just wanting to die every single second of every day, is something I haven't done in days it's a huge relief to not just wish I could die and go to heaven already, and escape the pain of memories that my mom made in my mind, I'll never forget what she did to me, it ruined me . I can't say what she did yet, because I don't know if anyone is even reading this, and if someone is that they actually care about a random 12 year old girl ,if your reading this please let me know.it would make my day so much better then it is, I've just been at home all day -I'm homeschooled by the way, so the friends I've made help more then you think- sitting on my couch doing school work with my dad helping every now and then, mel( doggo) just most likely dying right before my eyes , then my friend since one years old, heh, he doesn't even talk to me that much anymore I know he goes to public school, and I don't but him talking to me would help a little more, then this is probably getting on your nerves, a 12 year old that has no life experience is depressed over something her mom did when she was 4 now she has to see her mom every three weeks, I can see why people could be annoyed about me posting this, but it's just I'm getting something off my shoulders that's haunted me since 4 years of life, so I have to leave now, go talk to some internet friends maybe, maybe even the ones I just made irl, so boo-bye......