In the midst of tragedy

It haunts me anne

When your heart just hurts so bad and your in so much pain, you can't breathe, you can only lay there and cry no matter the cost . Jackson picked me up from the mud and carried me to my bracket. Anne smiled at me as Jackson laid me on the bed next to her. I was muddy but Anne didn't care. None of us could ever take a shower here or we would be most likely be murdured . I laid there and she sat up and said I'm sorry , you know I am but don't get your self depressed it's not heathy Anne says as she kissed little sages fourhead . Saige was a happy little baby. I knew I had to pull myself together for my little girl cause we are gonna make it baby girl. I looked up at Anne and say " it just haunts me Anne " I look around and see all the tragedy and I don't want to live but then I think of you and my baby and I just have to pull together for you two it's not fair to y'all. " who said any of this is fair dinn were all dieing here . That's not fair. Killing this child's father wasn't fair . Killing our parents wasn't fair. Nothing this world is fair but we continue to live in horrible conditions because we can't change it. Anne looked at me like a little mother. She acted and talked just like our own mother. " just think one day this little girl will be a business woman or some one great." I smiled just like her father.i say and stroke my babies head . " exactly " Anne says . Let's get some sleep , we have work in the morning. Anne adds I roll over and take Saige from her arms and we lay there and fall asleep we only needed each other. I woke up to a gun shot I ran outside and Jackson laid on the ground. I screamed and I ran to him. No! I cried why Jackson! I looked down at his face and relized it was marks face . Color drained from his face " he wisperd " I love you baby " no I cried please stay with me!! I looked around me I seen my parents laying in a pool of blood. Mark had tried to save my mother from being raped but was unsuccessful. Mama!!! Please help! Me!!!! I had screamed but she never got up. I looked down at him and wisperd I love you too but he was already gone. I started crying so hard, he was the love of my life