Why do I do this?
Why do I keep tricking myself?
Why do I want him to like me so bad?
Why do I feel this way?
Why do I do this to myself?
There will always be pain.
Maybe I shouldn't love at all.
Maybe I should become recluse.
Hide away in a little corner and never come out.
Maybe I should just be miserable.
After all I do deserve it.
But I won't.
I won't just sit there.
And let myself crumble away until I am nothing but skin and bones.
But you may ask.
Why?
Because I am selfish.
I want so much more for myself.
I want to love again.
And never hurt.
But it is not always that easy.
I know that.
But it's okay to believe in childish things.
Sometimes at least.
