I gazed upon the sky,
As I try to fight back tears that will never dry
Tossing questions to heavens above;
Overwhelmed by apprehension;
Uncertainty deepens as each day passed
Beseeching for atonement,
Yearning for a loving arms to unchain me from this madness;
Seeking to understand beyond my ocomprehension;
It all seemed clear for a moment
Then suddenly fade away
Lingering through the pages of yesterday's fantasy;
Reminiscing all the was uttered in silence spoken untrue;
The eager anticipation of a dream that won't ever be,
The promise of tomorrow to be made broken;
The proclamation of a long awaited devotion
Becoming a vague honesty;
Anger lurks around like a friendly foe, consuming my self control.
I chose to stay still with my thoughts leading me to desolation.
Yet, I am exhausted of being strong
So madly exhausted of quieting my rage;
Growing weary of waiting,
Wanting not to care, slowly
Seemingly desiring to feel no more;
As I grasp to every piece of unforgotten past
The answers were visibly undeniable
But for some blinding reason,
Unknown yet to what is left of my sanity,
I refuse to embrace the premonition of the majority;
A concealed place inside my soul
A flicker of hope still burns
The threads of faith still binds a will to give my heart unselfishly;
I will not let go;
For I know this love breathes deeply
Within my calloused heart..
Amore- 4/10/2005
