Everything has gone back to normal. You and I are still friends, you still smile when I say one of our stupid inside jokes, we still play volleyball at lunch. Except that's not what happened. To everyone else things seem normal. You aren't crying, I'm more smiley than the past two days, but to you and I things are anything but "normal". You are still ignoring me. I still feel the guilt.
Yesterday I sent you an apology. The only words you spoke to me were,"I read it". I try to tell you jokes to make you laugh like you used to. You smile slightly and nod, but never really laugh. I don't think you were even really listening to me.
Today you didn't cry. You didn't ignore me. You just didn't go out of your way to talk to me like you normally would. I went into the gym at lunch to see if you wanted to play volleyball. No one was there. I just played by myself in the empty gym. The only noise was my arms hitting the ball as a passed it to myself repeatedly. I was alone with my thoughts.
Pretty soon more people walked into the gym. A group of our friends standing by the door. I decided to go over and say hi but as soon as I got there, they started whispering things and left. I know you told them about what I did to you. I know you twisted the truth. You didn't tell them that you kept bugging me. They don't know my side of the story. The think I'm some cruel bully that hurt you. Maybe that's what I deserve. Maybe they should ignore me. Maybe they should walk away. Maybe I'm just not good enough.
YOU ARE READING
I'm sorry.
РазноеYou asked me what annoys me about you. I never should have answered.
